I try to force the words out of me so I can feel something.
I force words out so I am more than an empty shell.
I feel emotion yes, but it is dull.
I don't quite know how to explain it.
I am experiencing these emotions, but I am seeing it happen from a distance away from my body.
I have no twinkle in my eyes like I used to.
This is all nonsense, I know.
I feel helpless as I watch all emotion fade away.
I watch it disintegrate into nothing.
All the while holding a token smile on my face.
