Dear Mom and Dad,
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I let you down. I'm sorry that I can't be your depression and anxiety free daughter anymore. I'm sorry that my mental illnesses aren't believable. I'm sorry that I don't come to you for help when I lay in bed silently screaming at my own thoughts. I'm sorry I don't come to you when I want to rip the flesh off of my body. I'm sorry I don't love myself the way you love me. I'm sorry when I can't do my chores because of my anxiety or depression. I'm sorry that I never disappoint you, so now I'm scared to. I'm sorry that I don't let you see my suffering because I'm too scared of it being rejected. I'm sorry I break into tears every time I try to tell you, so that as I'm trying to explain these tears make me choke and I can't get anything out. I'm sorry that I'm not going to be an engineer. I'm sorry I'm not going to live up to your wildest dreams. I'm sorry that I'm going to move out and live alone forever and not give you grandkids. I'm sorry I hold myself to such high standards, that yours make me overwhelmed.
