I can feel the distance between everyone and myself.
I can barely call my best friends my best friends anymore because I share so little.
I'm cutting myself off.
I didn't think this would happen.
I'm pushing them away even if they don't feel it.
I feel nothing but at the same time I want to cry.
I want to sleep.
I want to end this.
I try to find something about them that comforts me but every positive thing slips out of my grip, and something negative is shoved into my hand.
I am force fed these thoughts by my own mind.
The same mind that keeps me from expressing them properly.
The one that closes me off from my friends.
The mind that is getting increasingly difficult to deal with.
That's getting bitchy and snappy.
The one that won't leave me alone.
I need distance from all of it.
