Unbreakable

- numb -

She's been through some shit, but its okay because it's over now and it got her to here.

Except that it's not okay.
Because she's lying here, late at night, and wondering where she went wrong.

What did she do to end up in this amazing life, feeling none of it?

What did she do that means she barely feels anything anymore, but not in the way she used to. She used to be numb, and cold, and unfeeling
And it's the same now
But it's not.

And she's trying so desperately to get back those feelings that were so strong, so passionate, so uncontainable, but she doesn't know how.

Feeling broken sucked, but somehow this is nearly just as frustrating. Now she knows what she's missing but she just can't quite reach it.

She knows she should be excited, she should be happy, she should be feeling at least something about everything that's happening. But somehow, all she feels is numb. And the lack of good is almost as frustrating as the bad.