Freaks Of Nature (Dean Winchester)

Dead

I was jolted awake by warmth surrounding my hand, surrounding all of me. My eyes opened instantly, flashes went through my mind,

His hand laid twisted out from under the cars windshield. Blood was everywhere. I couldn't breath correctly, my body violently and painfully jolting around violently. Shaking, I started fading in and out of consciousness, how can I help anyone?! I'm useless, wait...
I thought in my head, "Cas."
That's the only thing I could do at that moment as pain ripped through my body. Tearing me limb from limb. My screaming didn't stop, I blacked out.

Finally I could see again. Tears flowing down my face, I could see Sam in front of me. His hands cupping my face, "S-s-am-my! I'm so s-s-orry, it's my fa *hiccup* ult. H-h-he w-would ha-hav..." I couldn't say anything else, due to the fact I could hardly breath from the tears racking my body. Dean was dead because I distracted him, he looked away from the road. It's all my fault! Again! Jason, Mom, Dad! They all died because of me. Because I came back to the bunker, Sam was left without a brother. I kept my eyes squeezed shut as I pressed my forhead against Sam's, holding my hands over his, focusing on breathing during my hiccups. "Roxanne..." "Sam-mmy. I. Am. So. Sorry."
Sam shook his head, "Roxanne, thank you..."
I looked at him disgusted, "Sam!" "Thank you for saving Dean." He had tears streaming down his face, "You got Cas's attention and he saved you both on time."

He pointed at Cas who was standing in the corner of the room. I realized we were in my room. I felt bad for not realizing him there sooner, "Cas..." He looked at me and sent me a weak smile. I tried to stand up but I almost fell. Sam caught me, "Your gonna be weak for a while. Rest up." I held onto Sam tighter but kept trying to walk to Cas, Sam walked me over to him and I let go, instantly falling forward and hugging Cas. His hands found my arms as he held me up. "Thank you so much Cas." He leaned down to my ear whispering, "Thank you as well. If it wasn't for you, you and Dean would be dead. Dean has done so much for me, thank you."

Soon the guys carried me to my bed, but I disobeyed. I argued tiredly, "I need to see Dean!" Sam shook his head, "You need to rest up. He isn't even awake. We are surprised you are awake right now." I shook my head, "No... I... Gotta... See Him... Let go... Youuuuuuu..." I fell asleep mid-arguement.

I left my apartment above my bar, locking it up and started jogging down the deserted road. The cool breeze hitting my face, the chill started getting to me. I stopped and started pulling my sleeve down, an old couple that were on their morning walk tisked at me. I raised my eyebrow as I realized the ugly scars that covered my arms. I bit back any smart ass remarks and decided to keep going. The town here isn't very nice, other than those who visited my bar, they knew I would kick their ass. I jogged past a café and the "perfect" wives (aka the bitches) were sitting at an outside table. They started laughing when I slowed by them, catching my breath.

"Catching your breath fatty?" I smirked at the comment, "What do you mean?" It was one of the Gosling sisters, her fake golden hair framing her face, "You know what I meant." I laughed and popped my jaw, jogging in place, "No actually, I'd like you to tell me EXACTLY what you meant." I hopped the little fencing separating us and stood on an empty table. Clapping to get others attention, "Excuse me? Excuse me, sorry but Mrs. Johnson- oops I meant Mrs. Gosling," people around us stiffled in laughter and some gasped, "Would like to make an announcement!" I get told things I'm not supposed too, people like to get drunk and blab their mouths.

One time a man, married, slept with Bella Gosling. His name happened to be Mr. Johnson, he was VERY intoxicated but she was very sober. She cheated on her husband with Mr. Johnson and she told him she was pregnant. Causing a while scandle shit to go down. So "accidentally" calling her Mrs. Johnson was a big hit. (The one who should have been sleeping with her husband)

Bella looked at me under her obviously fake lashes, "Fuck you." she spat out.

I smiled knowingly and hopped down, over the fence and back to jogging. The cafe owners are my friends and are used to this. It's not the first time I've called her out.
I was going down the deserted road, realizing what I've just done, AGAIN.

"Rox, wake up." I opened my eyes lazily, that was a weird dream. Usually I don't have dreams, that dream kinda made me feel shitty. Like when I did it, in the moment it felt great, but afterwards I couldn't sleep properly for three weeks.
It's just guilt or something, now that I had a dream about it I'm not going to be able to sleep.
"Yea?" My voice was horse, "how long have I been sleeping?"
Sammy sat on the edge of my bed, his hair lazily falling in front of his face, "3 days. You need to eat." I nodded and he helped me sit up, I was so emotionally and physically drained. He helped me walk to the dining room and I sat down at the empty table, "How's Dean?" I was afraid to ask but I did. Sam sighed, "Still not awake." He brought me a plate of eggs and bacon then a cup of iced water. I sighed, "Okay." Sam shook his head, "What all happened?" I shook my head, "He looked away, we hit something." Sam shook his head and sat down across from me.
"What did you hit?"
"Sammy, I don't freaking know. It was horrible and I don't want to think about it."
I started shaking as I lifted my food to my mouth, "Sorry Roxanne. I am just worried about you guys. I also want to know what caused that, I went and we cleaned the mess up and it was bad. There is no way you just hit a animal." I snickered and brought my hands and arms up to my head, making antlers, "Maybe it was a moose!" Sam rolled his eyes and I started laughing lightly, "Don't worry Sam. We will be up and better in no time, then we can worry about what we hit." Sam blew out in his cheeks, "Dean's gonna be pissed about the Impala. It's not the first time he has fixed it." I smiled at the thought of him cursing and fixing the car.

I helped Sam do dishes after I finished and I got to go see Dean. We walked to his room, I opened the door and my breath caught as I saw him. His eyes were open and looking around the room, when he saw me he tried to get up but instantly realized he was exhausted. "Hey guys." His voice was horse, and I started crying, "Dean, you asshole! You scared me!" Sam left the room saying he was going to get him something to eat and drink. I walked over to Dean and sat next to him, "Roxanne what all happened?" I got comfortable, crossing my legs and completely facing him, "You looked away from the road and we hit something, causing us to get in a wreck. The Impala flipped multiple times, crushing my legs in it and you," my voice cracked as I tried not to cry, thinking about the horrid sight, "You we're almost dead. I thought you were dead." He shook his head, "How did we get here?" "Cas, I blacked out and he says I got his attention and he saved us." Dean sighed and I instantly hugged him, "Dean, I thought you were dead." Dean patted my hair down, "Well I'm not. No need to get so upset." "Dean, what I saw is unseeable." "Unseeable?" He snickered and I playfully slapped his arm, "I saw you laying there, not moving or saying anything. It was horrible, Dean."

He sighed again, and held onto me tighter, "Thank you Roxanne." I ignored the thank you since I didn't deserve to be thanked. I just buried myself in his chest, "Life is never boring is it?" He laughed, "Yea, this was a big "welcome back!" From the universe." I laughed but buried my face into his chest, "I hate you." My voice cracked, during those words. "What? Why?" Tears came from the corner of my eyes, "You left me. God, you left me so quickly. Your back but you left me so fast." He sighed, "I know. I'm sorry." I shook my head, "Everything was so fast. Everything. You were gone so fast." "I'm not going to leave you again. Promise." I shook my head and looked up at him, we both leaned forward, our lips barely grazing each other, my hand traveled up to rest on his cheek.
"I brought you water aaaaand imma goooo."
Me and Dean looked away from each other and I sat up, "I gotta go anyways. I stink."

Wow, that was attractive!

Sam chuckled as I hurried out of the door, my cheeks burning.