shawn mendes imagines

All The Things I Love About You

Shawn was perfect. It didn't take a genius to understand that Shawn was overall the perfect man. He was the best boyfriend any girl could ever dream for, and he was fucking famous for crying out loud. He had countless fanfiction shit and stuff on the internet, and it was all so accurate. All of those dumb ridiculously gross relationship goal stuff all of the twelve year old girls wanted, was exactly what he did. He posted pictures online with you, much to his publicists dismay as she said it may cause a slight uproar in his fanbase if he were to announce he was in a relationship. He didn't care at all, he posted photos with you, of you, posted mushy captions, all of the stuff teenage girls make edits of and post on tumblr. He took you on dates, but weirdly personal dates. Like he would take you on a picnic to a little hill by your house or that italian restaurant that was tucked away in the western corner of your town that you just loved. He took you on tour, when you could of course, and he always made sure he made time for you whenever he possibly could.

But it was all just... way too good to be true.

You considered yourself to be incredibly average. You didn't have an extraordinary job, you were an architect. You had a pretty great job at a firm, which was amazing for your age and the fact you were a female but it was nothing compared to your chart topping pop star boyfriend. He was absolutely stunning, one of the most beautiful man you had ever seen in your whole life. His body was perfect, there was seemingly no flaws. Even the scar on his cheek he had gotten using his dad's razor when he was younger that bothered him so much was the cutest thing ever. He was hot as all hell, girls wrote friggin sex fantasies about him online. You thought it was super weird, yeah sure, but still they existed. He was genuinely perfect in every single way and you were mediocre at best.

You didn't consider yourself super hot, and you weren't super tiny, which is apparently what everyone thought Shawn needed. Someone considerably shorter than him, and tiny overall. You weren't that. You were shorter than him, sure but it was due to the fact that he was more of a tower than a man, but you weren't super tiny. You didn't look amazing in a bikini, you don't wear a size extra small, and overall, you just didn't think you were what Shawn deserved. He deserved the perfect girl, and you didn't deserve him.

But, that was just what you thought, not what Shawn thought. When you met Shawn at gross little coffee shop in Texas, he thought you were absolutely radiating. He thought you were the prettiest thing he had ever seen, with your glowing caramel skin, and long deep ebony hair. He was dumbfounded by your beauty, how your body wasn't one of a super model but you made it look absolutely lovely. What he loved most was that you had no idea how absolutely gorgeous you were. He hated seeing all of these admittedly stunning women at events and parties, who just know they are one of the most gorgeous human beings in the world. You were even more stunning than all of those girls he had ever seen combined, and you weren't even aware.

He tells you ever since then he has been absolutely smitten. So in love with you, maybe even disgustingly in love with you. You just didn't find it realistic. You didn't find it realistic that this perfect human being saw you as an equally perfect human. You didn't vocalize it too much, but he knew. He knew you felt insecure. Sure, he wasn't sure of the extent of the fact, but he knew.

"C'mon honey, please? You haven't sat in on Q&A in forever." Shawn whined, trying to pull you off of the couch that you were firmly planted on in Shawn's dressing room for the venue that night.

"I don't like them, I feel uncomfortable. I'm not even semi ready. I'm wearing one of your sweatshirts and shorts. I can't go, and I don't want to." You told him for what felt like the eightieth time in the past five minutes.Yet, he continued to try and pull you up. "Shawn, seriously I don't want to." You stated as monotone as you could physically could manage. You couldn't show any weakness in a situation like this, he was the type to call of his Q&A to talk to you and make you feel better. You hated when he did that, you hated when he would put you before that kind of stuff, it made you feel like a controlling bitch, even though every single time he told you that it was his decision, not yours, and he is more than willing to tell anyone who asks that very thing.

"Honey, come on. They love you they always do." Shawn knew he was lying right through his teeth. They never loved her. At best, they completely ignored her, which is what Shawn considered 'love' even though it was just not being a complete asshole.

"They literally never love me, Shawn. Last time a girl told me to hang myself with one of your broken guitar strings." It was actually incredibly sad that you weren't exaggerating, she had actually said that. She had used her question to ask if you could do that, which was the fucking saddest thing you'd ever heard.

"It won't happen this time, I promise." He let go of your hands, knowing for a fact that you wouldn't be going with him. He looked at you with sad eyes, pulling his blue button up sleeves up to his elbows, his muscular forearms tensed up a bit and you felt a knot in your stomach.

"Shawn, they're right." You groaned, pulling yourself up and somehow dodging him, which was impressive since he was such a tall muscular guy. He scoffed a little, folding his arms as you started to pace around his dressing room, your socks picking up some static electricity as you dragged your feet across the carpet.

"If you're saying you should hang yourself..." He chuckled, and you quickly whipped your body to face him, a glare on your face.
"No, Shawn. They are all right." You started, pulling the ends of your hair that was up in a ponytail to your fingers, fiddling around with the ends of it. His arms dropped to his side and his head tilted to the side a little bit, a few of his curls falling into his eyes. He started to look sad, and he knew what you were about to say was going to break his heart. "I'm not good enough for you." You whispered, looking down at your feet.

"The hell is that supposed to mean?" Shawn hissed, taking small careful steps towards you until he was only inches away from you.

"Shawn, I'm just not good enough for you. You're fucking perfect, you're the perfect man and I'm just..." You tried to think of the correct word to use but it just wasn't coming to your brain. "me." You sighed, looking up at him. You could feel his breath on your forehead, he was that close to you, yet you weren't touching. His arms were shaking just a bit, so you could tell he wanted to pull you close and hold you badly but he was scared. You were glad he didn't though, you may have started crying.

"Do I need to list every single thing that I love about you?" He simply stated, looking you straight in your eyes. You shook your head quickly, not wanting him to waste anymore time on your insecurity than he already has.

"No Shawn, it's fine, i'll get over myself, it's ju-" He cut you off as he grabbed both of your hands.
"The way you smile, the way you laugh when I say something that isn't even remotely funny, the way you get so passionate about those fucking blueprints for some class that I can't even begin to understand, how you get so emotionally invested in those Grey's Anatomy characters to the point of tears over the fact that Christina and Owen broke up, how you taught yourself piano because you wanted to be able to play while I sing, the way you smell like peaches every single day, how incredibly aware you are of social issues, how you literally went to a black lives matter protest on your birthday because you said that was the real important stuff, how the music on your phone literally only consists of my stuff, Taylor Swift, and Billy Joel-" You laughed a little, cutting him off.

"I also have the whole season one of Glee soundtrack." You swung you and Shawn's hands back and forth a little bit. It made your whole body feel warm and happy over the fact that he saw all of these little things about you and thought about how much he loved you. He noticed things more than your body and the way you moaned his name. He noticed all of those little things, those dumb things you had barely even thought about. "Shawn, I love you so much. I seriously do, and you mean everything to but I-" He took one of his hands and placed his pointer finger over your lips.

"But nothing." He pulled you into a big bear hug, his arms wrapping completely around your body, making you feel like you were in a huge cocoon of love. You wrapped your arms around him, trying to make your hands meet so you can fully hug him back. "It doesn't matter if I am a pop star or a dumpster diver or if you're an architect or a screamo lead singer. It doesn't matter, I love you and you love me. Literally, the only thing that matters. I don't wanna hear anymore of this 'not good enough' shit, got it?" He stated, trying to sound somewhat powerful and dominant. He wasn't always good at seeming dominant and scary.

"Sh-"
"Got it?" He boomed, squeezing you just a little tired.
"Got it." You grumbled, "I'm still not going to your Q&A"