One day at a time..

Chapter 17

[Charles]

"Allie," I say happily as her smiling face pops up on my phone.

"Hello, handsome." she says with a huge smile.

I laugh, "Thank God for FaceTime!!"

"Exactly. That way I can see your sexy face," Allie replies, laughing.

I crack a smile but it quickly disappears. "I miss you," I say quietly.

I do miss her. She made me laugh, she was sweet, she kept me company. I do miss being around her. I miss Alli more but I do miss her.

Her blue eyes grow softer, "I miss you more."

"You definitely don't," I chuckle.

She talks about work and I catch her up on the shows she's been missing, leaving out the details of Alli. I feel like I am lying to her but I've already lied about so much that this seems insignificant. I know I am being unfaithful to Allie but my heart will always belong to Alli Speed.

Without even noticing, I walk to my bunk and lay down. I plug my phone in and prop it up so that I can still see Allie and she can see me. I pick up the Zoey stuffed animal and start messing with it.

"You miss them, don't you?" Allie suddenly asks.

"More than anything," I say quietly. Well, not more than Alli.

"Has Melissa sent you anymore clips?" she asks with a sad tone in her voice.

"No, she's on vacation with Phil right now and the girls are with my mom," I sigh.

"I'm sorry, baby. You'll see them soon. In a few days you'll be back home," she says smiling.

"Yeah, for two days before we fly out to Vidcon," I roll my eyes.

Allie sighs, "And then back on the road."

"Yes ma'am," I say sadly.

Soon enough, it is time to get off.

"Charles..." she says shyly.

"Yes?"

"I love you," she says looking at the camera with big blue eyes

"I love you too, Alli." I say again, so it isn't exactly a lie. I do love Alli.

We get off FaceTime just as all of the guys are climbing into their bunks.

"Charles, man, Alli? Did you win her back?" I hear NerdRock ask.

I take a deep breath and feel my throat tighten. "Um, no. That was Allie Wesenberg," I say too quickly.

Just then, NerdRock jumps down and sits in front of my bunk.

"Dude, you and Alli Speed are meant to be. I see how much you miss her. And the way she looked at you when you were on stage.... Oooh, man, she misses you." He says, laughing.

"Look, just drop it, alright? Alli Speed is out of the picture. She's moving on with her life. Allie Weseneberg is my girlfriend and that is the way things are staying." I say too rudely.

"Alright, man. Sorry, Charles," NerdRock says and climbs into his bunk.

"Travis, where are we going next?" I hear Danny ask.

"New York," I hear him reply.

I drift off to sleep from the swaying of the bus, and that's when the dream starts;

I am at the house editing when Alli Speed, well... Trippy, walks through the door with Zoey and Marley jumping at her, happy to see her.

"Hi, baby." She says with a smile and kisses my cheek.

"Hi, beautiful," I laugh.

"Sooo... Can you do me a favor?" She asks suddenly.

I chuckle, "Uhhh... Am I gonna like this?"

She laughs suddenly. "Just go on YouTube and look at the CTFxC page!!"

"TWO MILLION SUBSCRIBERS!!" we both yell.

I jump up and wrap my arms around her, spinning her around. I kiss her passionately as she holds onto my upper arms.

I set her down as she giggles and has a smile that makes me fall in love with her all over again.

"I'm running out to grab a bottle of champagne to celebrate," she says and kisses me. "I'll be right back."

She turns and walks toward the garage door. "Al...!" I tell towards her.

She spins to face me, "yeah?"

"Uh, keys would help!" I laugh and toss her the keys.

She turns back around and opens the door to the garage. "Oh, and babe!" I yell.

"Yes?" She says with a huge smile on her face.

"I love you!" I say laughing.

"I love you more!!" the beautiful woman that I used to fall in love with over and over again yells back to me, and then she's gone.

About a half an hour later, I get a call. Someone tells me that she has been in an accident. She was announced DOA- dead on arrival.

I wake up in a cold sweat. Jumping up, I hit my head on the bunk above me. I rub my forehead slowly as I realize I have tears running down my cheeks.

God dammit! I need to get her off of my mind.