All Night || d.t

Love has no age

*Your POV*

»You need a day off.. after we visit Pablo you can do whatever you'd like to do..« he says and usually this would make me really happy..

I would be glad to have a day off and just read or study or watch some tv.. especially because it's a cloudy day and it looks like it's going to rain..

I really love these kinda nights and I'm thankful that today is one of these... and I also don't have a problem with seeing Pablo anymore.. I actually need to talk to him.. I look at him and nod..

My throat is burning from all the screaming and crying.. I cover my face with my hands and take a few deep breaths to calm down.. For everyone who knew me I died..

I'm not alive anymore for them.. for those who believe in it I'm dead. I hope it was credible.. I wish we would've thought about this earlier. I feel like everything is going to be easier right now.

It's like my mistakes finally are going to stop chasing me.. at least that's what I'd like to believe in. It'll take some time until everything sets and then everything will be fine again..

He looks like he doesn't know what to say.. I don't know what to say either.. he coughs. »I'll bring you some food and something warm for your throat and then.. we'll see.« he says and leaves.. it's surprising me how caring he is.

I knew he would have a soul and be nice when it gets serious. I knew he wouldn't be as bad as he acts like.. nobody is. Everybody needs a little bit of love.. that makes me smile..

After I visit the bathroom and wash my face I put something comfortable on.

When he walks in with food and tea he looks down at me and stops for a second. I keep looking at him.. he's looking at my legs.. the huge butterfly on my thigh.. he likes this one..

I know that because a crooked smile places his lips and when I got he he kept smiling all the time. I don't know why this makes him so happy but it gives it something special.

He shakes his head and puts the tray on my bed. I feel so tired and exhausted. I don't feel like talking so I just sit down and start eating quietly..

He leans his elbows on his knees like always and looks out of the window..

I can't help but stare at him.. I remember the first day I saw him.. how amazed I've been by him.. his jaw, his eyes and even the way he's been standing.. his side profile makes my head spin. Im still amazed by him.

I never thought that it would come to this point. How could I expect to end here only because I've been so attracted by him in that moment.

I'm asking myself what would've happened if I would've walked another way or just would've kept walking without looking at him.. but it would be impossible..

Walking along there without looking at him would be more than impossible. Even the days he's been violent.. now he's barely touching me.. it's crazy how fast everything has changed. I wish I would know what this between us is.

We're kinda close but distant at the same time. I mean I'm sure we're not even friends or something and we will never be more than this. Maybe it's better like this. More would confuse and ruin everything.

*Ethan's POV*

It's stupid how I can't control myself. Everything is changing too fast and I don't like that. I can't change. Even if I would try. But I don't want to change..

I did things that prove that I'm confused. Stroking her head and bringing her food. What am I doing?

I've only been nice because Pablo told me to be nice. I still don't know why he wanted that but I tried my best.