All Night || d.t

Breakdown

*Ethan's POV*

She looks at the ground.. she starts breathing deeper and deeper.. I've never felt her squeezing my hands that much. She's going to break them..

I can see her strengthening her body..

She starts to make noises.. like she's groaning.. screaming.. breathing.. maybe all in one with her mouth closed..

Then she grabs my arm and tries to hold onto it. She looks like she can't breathe.. like her looks are frozen. I've never been more scared.. maybe I should've waited for Pablo. She's having a mental breakdown. Fuck..

She blinks a few times and starts screaming like she's in pain.. she lets me go and falls on the ground. I push the chair back and get on my knees.

She looks like she's trying to hold the ground in her hands.. she screams again so loud that it's hurting my ears but I don't know what to do. Everything I could do or say could be wrong now..

She slowly turns around and gets on her knees.. she's still making these noises that scare me.. my heart is racing.

She gets on her knees and starts punching the ground and screaming with a deep voice. She's freaking out and that's scaring me. I've never seen someone punch anything like this..

»Y/N NO! STOP!« I say grabbing her wrists but she shakes me off and stands up. So do I. She almost trips and falls but holds onto the wall.

Her face is covered with tears but she's not sobbing.. it's like they're just storming out and rolling.. not having anything to do with her facial expressions..

I would be more than wrong if I would tell her to calm down now. It wouldn't change anything. It would make everything worse.

Now she starts to shake like crazy. Like she's going to break or really collapse or explode.. I slowly walk towards her but she walks past me pushing me away.. she grabs the sheets and throws them onto the ground. She screams and screams..

»NOOOO!« she screams running her hands through her hair.. she's clenching her jaw way too hard but I can't do anything.. I wish I would know how to make her calm down but I don't..

She kicks the chair away and then she takes it and throws it against the wall. She screams again.

»HE TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF! HE WANTED TO LEAVE TYLER BEHIND!« she screams and her voice is already so broken and so rough.. so raw..

I scratch my forehead but my hands are shaking..
»Baby.. calm down.. he could survive..« I say not even being sure about what I'm saying. Maybe it would be better if I would shut up.

She walks towards me.. she grabs my collar and starts shaking me.. »YOU ARE TAKING ME TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL!« she screams and lets me go. Then she pushed me away.

»HE THOUGHT THAT I DIED BECAUSE I LET IT HAPPEN! I LET THIS ALL HAPPEN! I LET HIM AND TYLER ALONE! I LET THEM DOWN! I SHOULD'VE KNOWN THAT HE WOULDN'T MAKE IT WITHOUT ME!« she screams her soul out so hard that she's shaking like crazy at the end of her sentence..

She takes the lamp from the nightstand, rips the wires out and throws it against and out of the window. The window breaks and the noise of shattering glass makes me wince.

»YOU DIDN'T CHOOSE ANY OF THAT!« I scream because I cant take her blaming herself for everything. I can't even imagine what's going through her mind right now... and the way she's thinking..

She starts to destroy everything.. I try to stop her but that won't work..

Suddenly she stops and for a second I feel relieved but then she runs towards the other end of the room where the windows are.