All Night || d.t

Thanks mom

*Ethan's POV*

When we park in front of the garage she gets off the car and just stands there. When I turn the engine off and walk over to her I can see her still breathing heavily..

I could understand her with all the other stuff.. with her dad dying and acting like she's dead and other things.. but I really can't tell her that I can understand her because I don't understand it either and it's fucking up my brain.. like seriously fucking up my brain..

Yes I am beyond mad and pissed. I'm out of my mind. It seems so unreal. I still don't understand what's going on but I do a little bit when she starts screaming.

»HE IS MARRYING MY FUCKING MOM!«
Hearing her scream again and knowing she has to go through shit and that she has to feel the same feelings again hurts me a lot. It annoys me..

The way she's shaking and looking like she wants to say something but can't make it is really tearing me apart.

»SHE DESTROYED OUR FAMILY.. SHE PREFERRED HIM OVER US OVER AND OVER AGAIN! HOW COULD SHE DO THAT WITH SUCH AN OLD DOUCHEBAG! DOES SHE EVEN KNOW WHAT HE'S DONE TO ME?« she screams and I can see how hurt she is.

I'm not going to say anything.

I'm really not going to say anything. I won't even tell her to calm down. I'm even way more pissed than her and I'm about to go back there and destroy this wedding right now but I won't show it because she needs me to be strong for her and I won't leave her alone now.

She punches and kicks the car. I don't care about that. If she feels like she needs to destroy something then that's fine.

She can destroy whatever she wants as long as she feels better afterwards. I can't stand it when someone makes her sad or upsets her and that's happening all the time.

Honestly sometimes I'm really close to just disappear with her. Just go somewhere else where nobody can find it and where we won't be able hear anything about the others..

»EVERYTHING WAS PLANNED! HE KNEW ME! HE FUCKING NEW ME! HE WANTED ME BECAUSE OF MY MOM AND THAT'S WHY I'VE BEEN SO SPECIAL TO HIM! ALL THE PERKS ALL THE JOKERS ALL THE TIMES HE HAD MERCY! WHY?« she screams with her hands that look like open claws.. her voice is shaking and her eyes are red. I can see in how much pain she is and that she is losing her sense of reality.

This all is too much for her. She has to go through so much and she is still so young... life is punching her from every side and she's so strong I really admire her but I don't know for how long she'll be able to do that.

»HE MADE ME GO THROUGH SO MUCH SHIT ALTHOUGH I AM THE DAUGHTER OF THE WOMAN HE IS MARRYING RIGHT NOW! WHY DID HE DO THAT? WHAT DID HE WANT FROM ME? PEOPLE DON'T DO THAT WITH THOSE WHO THEY LOVE!«

I know this makes her feel better and I know that she's right with every word. I want her to scream as loud as she can. I want her to scream everything out.
I can already imagine it in my head.

She'll scream, then cry a little bit, I'll make her something warm to drink while she takes a shower, then I'll put her favorite Disney movie on and she'll fall asleep with a fluffy comfortable warm blanket and while she'll be sleeping I'll go and have a showdown with Pablo because I have enough that this girl has to suffer. Excuse me. That my wife has to suffer.

Suddenly her looks change.

She looks skeptical.. a little disappointed and scared.. this is not good..

»Did you know about it..?« she ask with a shaking voice and my jaw drops. Holy shit I've totally skipped this part in my head. I look at her a little shocked.