All Night || d.t

Freak out

*Ethan's POV*

I enter and give her a death stare. I really don't like being here again. It hasn't felt like home for a while now. Only a card house with memories.

She takes a deep breath and tells me to sit down but I shake my head. It's not like I'm going to act like I forgot what happened before.

It's still burning my heart what she said and I can swear it changed a lot.. it's crazy how something so simple can change so much...

»Get to the point I have to leave.« I say totally cold. From now on I don't care anymore. At least about her. I'm not going to check on her anymore. I only want to know what she has to say and then I'll leave again.

She won't miss me since I'm like dad.
She takes a deep breath and crosses her arms in front of her chest.. I hate this woman.

»Grayson is coming for thanksgiving and he's going to stay for Christmas.« she says and my jaw drops.. my whole world stops spinning.

I freeze completely and so does my heart. God please tell me that I got it wrong or that she is lying to make mess with me or anything else that has nothing to do with this bastard..

It's already enough that she said his name.. I can't realize what's going on right now.. he's coming for thanksgiving and staying for Christmas? Is she serious? Is he crazy? Are they both actually trying to kill me?

That's definitely too long and I can't accept that. I don't want that.. I don't want to see him I don't want him to be here I don't want him to breathe the same air as me. I don't even want him to be my brother.

For the first time in a while I feel the walls coming closer again.. I feel like I can't breath and my heart starts racing.. my blood starts boiling and I feel my head burning.

Am I going to faint? Fuck this. This wasn't supposed to make me feel anything. This wasn't supposed to happen to me.

I clench my jaw and my fists so hard that I'm sure my bones are about to break. How could they do this to me.. they know exactly how I feel and how I am.. they know exactly that I'm not okay.. they don't even care about that.. but how would he know?

He left us alone too to save himself but who's the one that's like dad? Me of course.

Because I'm the god damn one who's still here and can't stop caring about the only person that's left from my family..

»You invited him.. didn't you..« I say shaking.. she rolls her eyes. »Of course I did. He's finally some vacation and he wants to spend it with his family.« is she kidding me? I try to calm down..

I take deep breaths and run my hands over my face. »That's the only time we all can be together..« she says and I can't hold myself back anymore. »ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?« I scream and scratch my neck totally shaking..

»You know exactly.. that you won't see me as long as he's here.. or ever again..« I continue and she shakes her head. She already knows why I think and feel for him so there's no need to tell her.

»I can't believe that you are so stubborn and jealous.« she says and I swear to god if she won't shut up then I'll burn this house while she is sleeping. I'm jealous?

I'm the last person that could be jealous. I don't know what to say I'm so overwhelmed and pissed right now I cannot..

»Okay.. you know what.. you can do whatever you want with your perfect Harvard son but forget about me. Act like I'm not alive. Just like you always do it.« I say and walk towards the door.