minute by minute / evak

05. "Clearly i am not straight"

It was Thursday when i next time went to school. I know i shouldn't have done it, but i spent Tuesday and Wednesday laying at home. It was the second week of school, and i already pretended to be "sick".
Bullshit.

I wasn't enough man to face Even. I hate to admit that.

As i walked towards the school building, i had "5 fine frøkner" on repeat on my headphones. If Even would know he'd laugh his eyeballs out of his head. The song was actually catchy.

In school i went to my locker, and opened it. Sometimes i had big troubles with it, but this morning it decided to work like it should.

A little piece of paper dropped from it onto the floor, but i picked it up quickly from there.

"Meet me in the boys dressing room at 10 o'clock, E."

I felt my heart beating faster in my chest as i read the note. It was from Even, and he wanted to meet me.
At ten o'clock we'd have a 30 minutes- long break before the next class, so it was a great chance to talk with him.
How romantic, ugh!

"Isak!" I heard a familiar voice yelling my name somewhere.

I still couldn't get my eyes off of the note that Even had left, until i noticed that someone was standing in front of me.

It was Jonas.

"Shit, you scared me!" I literally jumped on my place as i saw him.

"Sorry, buddy. What's that?" He said and nodded towards the piece of paper that i had still in my hand.

"It's nothing", i answered and put it back to my locker.

"Where have you been for two days?" He asked, and watched me as i took the books out of my locker and locked it.

"Umm.. I was sick. I had a big head-ache and a fever too", i lied.

"That really sucks! What class do you have now?" He asked.

"Maths, and after that i have psychology."

We began to walk slowly towards our classrooms, talking about normal things. It made me feel a little bit calmer, until our classes started and i was left alone.

When it was ten o'clock and i had finally made it out of the psychologys class, i started to panic.
I needed to head to the boys dressing room as fast as i could so that nobody could see me.

It took me almost ten minutes to find it, because everything's still very new to me. That's funny, because i have been in the boys dressing room before this.

And there he was standing, and looking as adorable as always. I felt my heart melting when i saw him.

I walked slowly to him, and looked around to see if anyone was in here. But there wasn't anyone, luckily.

"Where have you been?"

It was the first thing he said to me.
For fucks sake, i'm already so tired of that question.
But a different thing is, did i want to lie to him?

"I was sick", i ended up lying, of course.

I didn't want to look at him into his eyes, because it would make me weak and that's not what i am. It would also make me confess what i felt for him.

"You're lying, aren't you?" He asked.

How the fuck does he see through me so easily? It's like i don't have to even say anything, and he knows it all already.
He has answers to everything.

I nodded, but i still didn't look at him.

"I know what you're sick for", he started mysteriously.

He thought that he would get my attention that way, and he was so right.

I caught myself staring at him and his beautiful planet blue eyes that i so much loved.

"You're so sick of your own feelings, and you don't know what to do for that. And why you're so sick of them? Because you're so fucking scared and you know that you're not allowed to have feelings towards a guy. To fall in love is the last thing you want to do", he explained.

Those words he said spoke straight to my heart.

I know that love is a very strong concept, but i loved it how it sounded when it came from his mouth.

"You're such a cliche, Even Bech Næsheim", i said and automatically leaned closer to him.

I felt his warm body almost against mine, and i was surprised how good it actually felt.

"And that's what you love about me, Isak Valtersen."

After he said that he leaned in and kissed me. Just like that.
He pressed his soft lips against mine lightly, but thousands of emotions in it. The kiss lasted only for seconds, before i pulled myself away from him.

"Nope. I'm totally not doing this right now", i said and shook my head.

That was the first time ever when i saw him smiling with his eyes too. He looked so cute that i didn't even know if it was true or not.

"Yes, you are. Accept it." He said and put his both hands to my waist.

As he pulled me closer, i felt like all my problems and the whole world around me just dissappeared.

I crossed my hands behind his neck, and kissed him. This time, a little bit longer and rougher.
I felt thousands of shivers going through my body, when i suddenly felt his tongue in my mouth. At first it was weird, but after a while it felt so amazingly good and natural.

It all started to become an addiction of mine. His lips, hair, hands, and his body close to mine. Him.
I didn't want to let go, but i knew i had to.

"You do know that this isn't healthy for us both, right?" I asked.

I noticed that i was breathless, but it didn't matter.

After that, he pushed me against the lockers violently, but it turned me on in some kind of way.

He put his hands on my chest, and then he let them fell down slowly until they almost met my pants.

"Is this unhealthy too?" he asked.

I'm such a fool when it comes to him, but i tried to be strong, and failed.

"But you're straight and you have a girlfriend", i needed to remind him.

"Clearly i am not straight", he started.

"And fuck Sonja, i don't even like her. But when it comes to you, i have never felt anything like this with anyone." he said.

The words came straight from the bottom of his heart. Maybe this is what "love at the first sight" - feels like.

"I have never felt anything like this either", i confessed.

Then the bell began to ring, for a sign that the next class was about to start. It ruined our "beautiful" moment.

"Gotta go, see you Even", i said and gave him a little kiss to his perfectly shaped cheek.

"Yep, see you around Isak".

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