minute by minute / evak

06. "The fuck, are you gay?"

"Dear diary,

Yesterday i kissed him, actually, more than once. I was in seventh heaven for a while. I guess i'm starting to have real feelings for him, and it scares the shit out of me. + Even still has a girlfriend, so we can't be together even though i'd want to be.
If my dad would find out, i'd be dead. He wouldn't understand...

- Isak, 28.8.2016"

It was Friday, and we were having a sleepover with Jonas, Mahdi and Magnus. We were sitting in our kitchen and drinking beers.

"Where are your parents, Isak?" Jonas asked.

"Dad is on work so he's out of the town, and mom is visiting her sister or something like that", i explained.

The truth is that i don't actually know where dad is, neither did mom.

"This beer tastes like plastic!" Magnus said, changing the topic of our talk.

"Well, it's not mine. I found them from the fridge." I said.

I felt like i had to talk to them about Even and i. I couldn't just hold it inside anymore, because it was slowly killing me. They are my best friends, so they deserve to know.

"Guys... You know that i've been kinda weird lately, right?" I started.

They all just stared at me.

"Have you noticed? Because i haven't." Magnus asked from Mahdi who only nodded his head.

"Ok, anyways. You know that Even, from third?" I asked.

"Ohh, Even! He's so awesome! What about him?" Magnus said.

"We.. We had a thing." I finally let it out.

They were all shook, i saw it on theit faces. They weren't expecting that, and i totally get it. Magnus's mouth was wide open.

"A thing?" Mahdi asked, before he turned to look Magnus who was as speechless as he was.

"Yes, a thing." I repeated after him.

"The fuck, are you gay?" Magnus asked and stared at me.

"I'm not gay! Ok, maybe i'm a little bit gay but that's not the point, Magnus!" I admitted.

There was an awkward silence between us. I was wondering why Jonas didn't say anything about it. Maybe he was so dissappointed in me, but he didn't want to be rude.

"Is it so bad?" I asked from them.

They all shook their heads.

"Dude, that's just amazing", Jonas answered and gave me a quick hug.

I had never seen that side of Jonas, but i thought it's adorable. He seemed to be very private person, and he didn't open up so often even though i have known him just for weeks.

"It is! I've always wanted a gay-best friend!" Magnus said over happily.

"For fucks sake Magnus! I'm not g-"

Someone knocked to our front door, at the same time interrupting me.
I rolled my eyes and sighed. I walked to the door and opened it.

I saw Even standing there.

"Oh shit! Wait a minute", i closed the door quickly.

I ran back to the kitchen.

"It's Even", i informed them.

They started to laugh and yell something random things at the same time.

"Let's meet Even guys!" I heard Magnus say.