minute by minute / evak

010. "It's you, aren't you?"

"He kissed Vilde?!"

I closed my locker, and turned to look at Sana who had just told me the best thing ever. I couldn't hold in a laugh.

"Yeah, i saw them a while ago. Can you believe?" She asked.

And i couldn't. Just days ago i thought Vilde would be way out of Magnus' league, but clearly she wasn't.

"I can't. Magnus doesen't even know how to kiss a girl properly!" I laughed even more.

Sana had probably noticed how happy i was, and that was because of Even. I've been feeling better since he came into my life, and it was good. But i couldn't come out to Sana, i just couldn't. She was a muslim, and i didn't know shit about her culture or what would be her opinion about me being gay. If i was gay.

"So, what did you do last weekend?" She suddenly asked.

I fell out of my thoughts that were slowly surrounding me. Instead, i started to think about great answer to give her.

"I had a sleepover with Jonas, Mahdi and Magnus." I said.

It wasn't a lie, excatly. I just left out a couple things. Sana just nodded for response, but she didn't seem to be very convinced. She knew when people lied.

"Or maybe you were with a girl but you just don't want to tell me, huh?" She said.

I was getting out of control, without even noticing what i would say next.

"Why does everybody assume that it's a girl?" I let it out with an angry tone in my voice.

Sana didn't seem to be shocked, just a little bit surprised. Her facial expression didn't change even a bit after my sentence.

"Are you gay, Isak?" She whispered so that nobody would hear it.

I thought about it for a second. Maybe i really was gay, because nothing that i had done with girls before didn't feel right to me. But with Even it's different. It seems to be natural.

"Maybe." I said and shrugged my shoulders.

"Oh, ok." She just answered shortly.

Then the school bell began to ring, for a sing our next class would start soon.
I wanted to say thousand things to Sana, but when i opened my mouth to say something she walked away. I guess i had to talk to her after school.

Maybe she wasn't allowed to say anything about it because of her religion. Or maybe she thinks it's wrong to be gay. I couldn't know.

I headed to my maths class, our conversation still crossing my mind.
I saw Vilde and Magnus sitting on the other side of the classroom, talking and holding hands. I rolled my eyes and sighed, before i walked to them.

"Hallå, guys!" I greeted them and sat down to the place behind them.

"Hi, Isak!" Vilde said and they turned to look at me.

They seemed to be already so in love, even though they have "dated" for a day or two now. It was ridiculous.

"What's up?" Magnus asked from me without letting go of Vilde's hand.

"Nothing much." I responded simply.

The class has been going on for ten minutes now, and the teacher hasn't arrived yet. It was great, though.

"Have you guys heard about the hottest rumor that is going on around school right now?" Vilde asked from us with an excited look on her face.

Here we go again.