Silence

Chapter 9

           The one person in this whole I never wanted to see again ever was in front of me. There were endless possibilities of what I should do or say next and how I could end this with nothing bad happening.

"Josie you have to understand I loved you."

"Loved me wow already using past tense no wonder our relationship was doomed from the start."

"I knew you would fall for someone else I knew that it was only a matter of time before we'd break up"

"Benyamin go to Dawson we're done here"

"Josie you can't tell me you weren't attracted to someone else while we were dating" he asks.

"That wouldn't matter cause I had you" I say

"Had me what you already have a new boyfriend" he asks

"Yeah I do you got a problem with that" I said lying.

"Fuck him," he says.

"I think you were talking about yourself" I say and walk away to sit with Dylan and Issac and watch the game. More like the first 5 minutes I wanted to talk to Stasia so I went to go look for her.

But I got distracted when Davina and Lucy wanted me to help them ask this guy for his snapchat.

"For those two over there they think you're hot," I say, and one walks behind me and whistles.

"What the hell was that for," I say, and now they're looking at boobs, and I'm done with it.

"Fuck yourself" I say and walk back to Davina and Lucy and tell them what happened and then I look around. Scott and Yasmin were kissing while everyone else was talking or watching the game. My life was changing so fast and it had only been two weeks but I wasn't going to make anymore mistakes.

Stasia walked over to me and asked if we could talk in private about something. So we went to the far end of the field that only little kids go to. I sit down in the grass and she joins me.

"You should know that Drew and Dylan have some family issues and Drew doesn't want me to say anything, but I trust you. But you can't tell Dylan at all, but he and Drew might have to be put in group homes" she says, and then I'm confused.

"But what about his parents how come they can't take care of their own kids?" I ask and then she explains that they're jobless.

"You're so a faggot!" I hear someone yell and look to see Benyamin screaming at Issac who's trying to walk away from the concession stand.

Leave it alone Issac can defend himself my mind said but what I did before I could think was push him to the ground. He looked at me as if he needed something while he was on the ground. I looked to Issac and stole a fry from him and then I take his drink and pour it on Benyamin.

"Josie what the fuck!" He says, and everyone around him is laughing even his own friends.

Dylan then walks in and grabs Issac, and I and the last thing I see is Benyamin with his fade looking pissed. I didn't know where Dylan was us and I didn't think he knew either.

"Josie, what happened?" He said, and I rolled my eyes.

"I fixed it okay more than you ever did for Issac," I say, and then he rolls his eyes.

"Guys can we just watch the game or find hot guys cause I think that guy over there is staring at me" Issac says pointing to this kid from another school. I laugh and when he walks over to talk to him Dylan pulls me back.

He was really getting on my nerves even after what Stasia told me I hated how he treated me. So I pushed him back and then began to yell at him.

"What the fuck do you have against me!" I say, and he's in shock.

"I was going to say there's puddle in front of you but whatever Josie I don't even know why I'm here. You don't know my life so I have my own reasons to act the way I do" he says but then I grab his arm. I'm not even sure but we have a thing for grabbing each other but when I grabbed his arm. His sleeves moved up and I saw what he had been hiding on his arms this whole time.

Cut Marks.

Dylan pulled down his sleeve quickly and then ran off somewhere even though I'm his ride. This was such a stressful night why couldn't I be a normal girl and just hangout with my friends and try not to be fat. Why couldn't I have a boyfriend who gets me and would let me wear his jacket and would cuddle me to death.

"Josie you okay," someone says, and I look up to face this kid in my Home Economics. I didn't remember his name, but I often saw him looking at me.

"I'm fine- I mean I'm just feeling down," I say, and he tells me something.

"You're important Josie I'll stay with you if you want," he says, and I think about it, but then again I needed someone to stay.

"I'm going to sound so stupid but what's your name," I say wanting to slap myself and then he smiles.

"Anthony" he says and we to this shed type area that no one goes to I could've sworn he was going to rape me or something. Sorry but I'm really paranoid and I hope he wasn't expecting me to makeout with him or something.

But we sat and then we started to talk to talk about stuff I told him about my boy problems. He laughed and told me about his ex-girlfriend Julie who broke up with him because he was too "perfect". We then watched the game from afar but I saw that our school was winning and then I told Anthony I was going to get something to eat.

He and I walked down, and I got myself a slice of pizza and a Sprite, and he tried to pay for me, but I wouldn't let him.

"Pet Peeves," he said, and I thought about mine.

"Guys who leave me on read and fake people and people telling me what to do or say," I say, and then I receive a text from Stasia asking if Dylan was with me. I replied no, but then the thought of him hurting himself worried me.

I told Anthony I had to go and I ran off before even asking for his number or snapchat. I then got a text from Issac saying he found Dylan in the bathroom having a panic attack.