Silence

Chapter 26

           I'm walking home and slowly freaking out but I first call Issac.

"Josie it's Thanksgiving and I'm playing Uno with my dad what's wrong"

"Well I almost kissed Dylan and he told me he wants to be the one to kiss first like what the fuck does that mean?" I say and I hear him curse and his parents yell language.

"I gotta go but I need full details" he tells me and then hangs up.

I then call Stasia and her reaction is the same.

"Josie you're becoming a hoe like last week you were kissing Ryan two days ago you kissed Issac and now Dylan damn girl" she says and I laugh.

"I don't like him though it was only it the moment"

"Only in the moment my ass" she tells me.

"Stasia please I could never date Dylan he's too dark for me and not my type" I say and she begins to state reasons why we should date.

"I gotta go" I tell her and hang up.

I walk in and my family all are sitting and wait for me to walk inside.

"Josie sweetie I'm sorry do you wanna talk right now" my mom asks and I laugh.

They all look at me like I'm crazy.

"I'm tired so I'm just going to bed and I feel much better" I say and walk to my room and look at their confused faces.

The rest of break goes by normal and when I return to school I avoid Ryan and his group. I sat extra close to Stasia I was a little scared to talk to Dylan since the almost kiss.

Issac had rehearsals cause he won the part as did Davina. It was already December and winter break was coming soon.

Stasia and Issac were mad at both Dylan and I cause we didn't want to talk to each other.

During rehearsals Issac purposely trip the people who were supposed to play a married village couple.

Since Dylan and I were the only students not included in the play that came to rehearsals he made us fill out those parts for the rest of rehearsals.

He had to put his arm around mine and we had to sit close to each other. It was awkward but he began to whisper stuff like Dale looks stale and I couldn't stop laughing.

Everyone kept looking at us and it was awkward.

After auditions I asked if he wanted to walk home today. He told me why not so we just walked home. I saw the look on Issac's face.

"Dylan I don't think we should ever do that again" I say out of the blue.

"Play a married couple or almost kiss" he says.

"Both I mean we both don't even like each other like that and honestly I'm not ready for anything other than a friendship at this point" I say and then he stops.

"I agree"

"You do" I say surprised.

"Yeah I like knowing someone is as messed up as me" he tells me and I laugh and he drops me at my house and then walks home.

Winter break was in 2 weeks and I wanted it to come soon so I could enjoy Christmas and open up my presents.

I sit on my laptop so I can watch music videos while doing my homework. I then keep getting text notifications from Ryan.

Did he really think I wanted to talk to him after what he did to me. Now he's going to apologize and think all is well when it isn't.

Well I try to put him on do not disturb I decide to read some of the messages.

"Josie why have you been avoiding me"

"Josie do you wanna see a movie tonight"

"Josie are you seeing someone else"

"Josie what's wrong"

           He must not know me well after what Benyamin did I have trust issues with guys. I didn't want to deal with him and his load of bullshit so as I'm about to block him my phone restarts.

I didn't even realize I had my hand on the home button for too long. 

I wished more guys could be open about their feelings or be nice to girls and love them to death. But that type of love doesn't exist in the world I live in.