Silence

Chapter 27

I wake up a little early and texted Lucy she asked me if gym is going to be awkward again. I sigh and reply with a thumbs up. It wasn't that I wanted things to be awkward between Ryan and me. It's just that I don't hurt him to lie so I have to avoid him for my sake and his.

I greet Martin and Lena and then walk to Dylan's locker to rant about Ryan to him. At least he listens.

"I'm so frustrated right now why are all guys such dicks" I exclaim and he gives me a look.

"Gee you're in a good mood today," he says and I roll my eyes.

"I'm just done with people and I want today to be a great day," I say and walk away to head to my locker.

"Hey, Josie! Why you being such a bitch to Ryan he didn't do anything to you" Scott says from behind me.

"Dude lay off her" I hear Ryan's voice it was nice to know he still cared I guess.

"Well I need to know I bet she's getting some dick from another dude," Scott says and when I turn around to give him my opinion I see that Ryan has him pinned to a locker.

"Shut your goddamn mouth dude or else I will tell everyone in this school about what you told me" Ryan threatens and Scott shuts himself up.

"I'm sorry Josie," he said and I get a little scared I'd never seen Ryan yell at his own best friend.

I feel worse about avoiding Ryan but at the same time, I wanted to know what Scott told Ryan. Was it a lie about me or Yasmin or was it something else oh why must I get myself involved.

During gym a lot of girls were looking at me and talking about it which got annoying fast. Ryan defending me was sweet I'll admit but it was confusing at the same time. I didn't want him to lose his friendships for me.

So as we walked around the gym I caught up to him and asked him why he defended me this morning.

"It was the right thing to do and why have you been avoiding me?" he asks and I'm shocked.

"I saw the picture of you and Nina kissing and now you're acting like you and I can be together after this. I'm not your fucking rebound and you just watch me so you can fuck me" I tell him not caring if the coaches heard.

"You got the story wrong we never kissed," he says lying straight to my face.

"Fuck you," I say and walk off even though he looks hurt by my words he didn't know that he hurt me worse.

I feel stupid for even trying to talk to him. But I needed answers even though everything is even more fucked up.

As I headed to lunch I look as Ryan and Nina are talking. I just keep walking and sit down with Stasia and Issac.

"Honestly all I'm looking forward to is winter break do you guys have any plans," I ask as Dylan sits down.

"Plans for what?" He asks.

"Winter break I'm staying home all winter break," I say and he nods.

"Well I'm probably going to see my older sister and my older brother," Stasia says and this is news to me.

"You have siblings I didn't know"

"Half siblings same mom different dads" she explains.

"Well my parents and I are either staying or going to New York that's where I plan to move in the future either there or Los Angeles," Issac says.

"What's your passion anyway?" I ask him.

"Photography and one of you are going to have to be my roommate," he says.

"Or we could be like the show Friends and just all live together in an apartment in Manhattan" I offer and we all laugh but Dylan smirks.

"What do you want to be when you grow up," Dylan asks me.

"Well I haven't really thought about it but I don't mind living in New York with you guys as long as you guys pay the rent," I say and laugh.

When Stasia and Dylan begin to talk about Drew I zone out for a bit. Thinking about my future and who was still going to be in my life in the future.

"On the topic of relationships my goal is to find someone this year I mean even Josie implied that I was one of the hottest guys no wonder she couldn't keep her hands off of me," he says and then covers his mouth.

We both watch the look of confusion that appears on Dylan's face.

"What's that supposed to mean oh shit is she pregnant," Dylan said sarcastically and I roll my eyes.

"No, it's that Issac and I have kissed," I say and hope I didn't crush Dylan's already broken spirit.

"Ok and what else is new Issac kisses everyone," Dylan says.

"Have you guys kissed?" I ask and I look at the disgusted face Dylan makes.

"We could always make it happen" Issac teases.

"Yeah never in a million years," Dylan says and doesn't notice that I gave him my bag of goldfish and my Pringles. He's way too skinny for his age which isn't healthy and that's not okay with me not that I don't think his body is good. It's that you he's really thin and even Issac has more meat on his body.

After lunch I go to Theatre and we're deciding on designs for the sets me and Davina came up with this black and white idea like checkerboard for the floor. Dale admires it while Dylan jokingly made fun of it.

"Jealous much" I say and he fake laughs. Dang someone has an attitude that's not going to work in my house. I was so ready to give him an earful but I calmed down and said some things under my breath.

"You're kinda cute when you get anxious" he tells me and Davina takes an audible gasp.

"I said kinda" he add but it still made my heart flutter.

"Thanks I guess" I say and Davina hits me.

Today during rehearsals Dylan and I got bored since they were doing a read through.

"Wanna just like go around the school?" I ask him.

"You sure I don't think getting in trouble for be good for me" he says but since I'm much stronger I grab him by the arm and force him to follow me into the empty hallway.

It was late so only rehearsals were going on which meant no teachers were still here.

"What are we going to do" he asks and I realize I'm still holding his hand.

I let go and we begin to walk around in complete silence.

"Actually I have an idea" I say and quickly grabs his hand again.