Overcome (Scott Eastwood fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty

I'm now just over five months and we'd been pretty silent on social media before revealing the move to Texas but we're back now. We have alot planned today including recording for Scott's new podcast and I have a blog post going up later and we're shopping more for the nursery. As I'm waiting for Scott so we can go into town I decide to post a short Instagram story "Hi guys just letting you know I am back on social media and the blog. We got so busy with packing and everything for the move that I've fallen behind with my pregnancy updates so there's an extra long update going up tonight. I also wanna address Comic-Con I previously said I was going and I am still hoping to because we thought we wouldn't be here until the end of next month after comic con but plans changed. I'll be six months or close to it by comic con so we're seeing if I can still fly then but if not I will be facetiming or skyping in. I'll also be posting my birth plan at the end of this week as we've just finalised that. That's all I wanted to update you on also I am going to be on Scott's podcast this week so check that out as I'm going to be talking about mental health in pregnancy. Bye for now" I say.

We're back from town and setting up for the podcast "Welcome to the podcast I've been annoying you about for months now" Scott says "It's good to finally be on here I was a little bit disappointed not to be the first guest but I was in Vancouver so your forgiven. I also apologise if there's a lot of cuts in this as I have a tiny human pushing down on my bladder making me need to pee every five seconds" I say "You were my first choice and we did record another version of this with you but it was terrible so we're rerecording" he says "It was terrible but it was still early days then you've come along way" I say "I have, so before we start discussing the important stuff we thought it would be fun to give you guys a little insight into our relationship a kinda update. So my buddy there is gonna fire so quick fire questions at us about our relationship" he says "We're gonna get real truthful" I say "Let's do this" he says "First and last fight" his friend says "First was before we were even officially dating we got in a fight about all the travelling back and forth and how it wasn't fair which was basically my defence mechanism to stop myself from falling for Scott but clearly that failed but we wouldn't be here if we gave up" I say "Last fight was the other night when I forgot to get the specific ice cream she's been craving the entire pregnancy. But we never fight about anything serious anymore which is why we fight about little things like that" he says "Salted carmel and rocky road I got very emotional because of my hormones so I may of overreacted a little. It's little things but every couple fights" I say "Who's cleaner?" he asks "Me definitely I'm in that nesting period of pregnancy so everything has to be spotless" I say "Who's gonna be changing the most diapers" he says "I'd like to think we'd be equal" I say "Definitely" Scott says "First thought when you found out you were pregnant" he says "I was shocked but happy" I say "This is gonna sound weird but complete we were talking about kids and marriage and when Violet told me it felt right" Scott says "Which brings me to my next question. When are you planning to get married" he says "Maybe we already are. Jokes we're not definitely post baby when that will be is up to Scott and when he decides to propose but we've said we don't need a ring or a big fancy wedding to prove how much we love each other" I say "Is the baby gonna be an Eastwood or a Murray?" he says "Eastwood there was no real discussion about it we considered hyphenating but it didn't sound right with the baby's name so. She's half me and half Violet and she doesn't need Violet's name to prove that. There was some debate about giving her the Eastwood name because I went by Reeves for a long time and I was able to have alot of anonymity that way" he says "We know she's gonna grow up being the daughter of two high profile people but we want her to have as normal a childhood as possible and not just be known as Clint Eastwood's granddaughter or Scott Eastwood's daughter. Which is a big reason why we moved here away from that Hollywood spotlight which can put a lot of pressure on someone especially someone so young" I say "Fair point. Favorite pet name" he says "Handsome is probably the one I use most or honey which sounds incredibly old fashioned" I say "Beautiful or babe. I wanted to go with sweetcheeks but she hits me everytime I say it so" Scott says "And if I could actually hit you right now I would" I say "For Violet worst pregnancy symptom" he says "Everything people can tell you that you look glowy and incredible but they have no idea what's going on inside, I had horrible morning sickness the entire first trimester and I actually lost quite a bit of weight because I wasn't eating so I had to get an IV drip every week, I'm a hormonal mess like I'm either crying or really angry most of the time, everything hurts, I've mentioned the excessive peeing, pregnancy is horrible but I know it will be worth it when she's here and I'll happily go through it again someday but I hate being pregnant right now" I say "Moving on to something alot of people have been asking you about since we announced the pregnancy maintaining your mental health" Scott says "My big long speech about mental health in pregnancy is about to begin" I say "We have plenty of time and the people wanna know. This podcast is all about bettering yourself and for all the first time mom's out there who may be experiencing something similar it's important for them to hear this" he says "Exactly. I always knew I wanted to be a mum one day, it didn't matter to me when that was gonna happen or how whether it was natural, or ivf or adoption I didn't care I just knew it was something I wanted. I was a teenager when I was diagnosed and didn't really think about the future and what being pregnant would do to my mental health. I've been managing it pretty well these last few years and I've never been shy about admitting that there are bad days and I've messed up in the past, I had a problem with drinking too much and partying too much and surrounding myself with the wrong people for so long because it was my way of coping with everything being with people who didn't know I was sick or anything about me" I say "We've been working through this together for nearly nine months now and I've seen the bad days when you can't get out of bed or you wanna do something crazy and I love every side of you but we can both admit it wasn't easy at first" he says "We'd never try to paint ourselves as this perfect couple because we're not by the time the baby is here we'll be together just over a year and we're living together and have a baby and two dogs and people think we're crazy but for us it was always gonna happen eventually we knew a few months in that this was it for us. We found the person we wanted to share our life with and we've just sorta done things in reverse a little" I say "I think when you know your gonna spend the rest of your life with someone it doesn't matter how you do things like move in together, get married have a baby because it was gonna happen anyway at some point in our lives" he says "Exactly. There was no oh my god we can't have a baby we're not ready and it's too soon, for me the fear lay with would being pregnant cause my depression to worsen because of the hormones and because of the issues with my immune system and other things will I hurt the baby or does that mean I'll lose it. But we've been lucky to have such a supportive doctor and midwife which we did have to change with the move but we had met them a couple times already and their incredible and have made me feel so at ease about everything. I am attempting an all natural birth with some hypnobirthing so my midwife has been great with that. I'd say my mental health has been up and down more since being pregnant but I've kept up regular sessions with my therapist and my mum is flying out close to the birth and Scott's mum is coming next month for awhile and I've been so lucky to have them and Scott's sister Franscesca is pregnant too so it's been great having her going through this with me and I have support from other pregnant women I've met through social media" I say and we talk some more and then call it a day. We walk the dogs before settling in for a chilled night in.