My First and Only Love

Chapter Eleven

Cassandra:
The following month was magically. I was so happy. On our one month anniversary Spencer texted me in the morning.
Spencer: Good morning beautiful
Me: Morning love
Spencer: I have great plans for tonight
Me: Let me guess it's surprise
Spencer: Ah, you know me too well ;)
Me: Ok Spencer I know the drill what do I wear tonight?
Spencer: Something casual
Me: Oh alright, easier for me
Spencer: Don't you mean easier for Charlotte lol
Me: Ah, you know me too well ;)
Spencer: 😂 it's nice to know my girlfriend and I know each other really well
Me: Yea very nice 👌
Spencer: Well I'll pick you up at 6 ok?
Me: Ok
Spencer: By the way, bring clothes to sleep, you are staying the night with me
Me: Oh Alright
Spencer: Great. Well you later love you 😘
Me: I love you too 💖
That night, I wore a pair of leggings with a nice blouse and my black sandals. I had my hair up in a high ponytail.
There was a knock at my door. "Come in." Charlotte walked in and sat on the bed," Cassy, we need to talk." "Uh, you are scaring me... what's wrong?" "It's about mommy..." "Gosh, what happened?" "You remember that time that we were talking about if mommy did cheat on dad with Jacob?"

Flashback:
(This can be found in Chapter Two)
"Dad would be proud of us." "He is proud of us. He is watching over us from heaven." "Lies." "Huh?" "He is watching under us-" "Do not finish that sentence." "From hell," Charlotte finished. "Charlotte Antonella Holt, never say that again!" "Cassandra Stephanie Holt open your eyes!" "I have my eyes wide open!" "Then admit he is in hell." "Maybe he was actually sorry and God forgave him and he was taken to heaven." "He told me that he wasn't sorry for killing Jacob." "Well I guess he never really believed mom." "Do you?" "Sometimes. I don't know." "Is mom really capable of cheating on dad with Jacob?" "I don't know. Mom does have a bit of a reputation, but we haven't met that version of her. Sometimes I wonder if that version of her is still inside her. Maybe it is, and she actually cheated on dad. I really don't know, and I don't care anymore." "Yea, me neither. The situation got out of control. And now dad is gone." "Yea he couldn't survive in jail. I didn't expect him to." "Really?" "Yea really." "Wow." Charlotte was crying just like me. I hugged her tight," I love you my beautiful little sister." "I love you too."

Back in reality:
"Yea I remember. It was our first day of school." "Well yea. Ok, well... I confirmed it... mom DID cheat on dad with Jacob..." I saw tears form in her eyes. "But... how?..." "I borrowed mom's phone and saw a picture of them. In the background you could see a calendar with the year 2011." "That proves nothing though. I have pictures with guys on my phone and I doesn't mean I'm dating them." "Well yea but this picture was... well..." "What was it?..."
"Jacob had his arms around her waist and was kissing her neck." "That little-" "Shh. It gets worse." "What can be worse than that?! I just found out my mom cheated on my dad when I was freaking eleven and I was so oblivious to it!" "Well please just relax so I could continue." I took a deep breath," Ok I'm relaxed," I lied.
"No you're not. But, you are calmer and I guess that's enough... Mom is still with him." "WHAT?!" I yelled jumping off the bed. "Cassy please calm down," she begged me, tears rolling down her cheeks. "No! What the hell is wrong with her?! She is still dating him! My father got so mad when he found out about them that he tried to kill him! And now he's dead! And it's all her fault! And she is still with him?! What the heck is that?!" Charlotte was sobbing," Please Cas, please."
Seeing my sister in this state melted my heart. I went to her and held her in my arms," It's ok." I stroked her hair softly. After being like that for a few minutes, Charlotte spoke up," She's with him right now." I didn't answer, rage boiling up inside me. "I read her texts with him, they were meeting up today." "Ugh," was all I could manage to say. "And you have a date with Spencer right?" "Yea, but I want to stay here with you. You are more important." "No Cassy. Please go with him. I'll be fine, I promise. Ima go out with Elizabeth and Megan. I'll be fine." I touched her cheek softly," I love you Charlotte." "I love you too Cassandra."
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Spencer and I were back at the lagoon from the other time. "Are you okay?" He asked me suddenly. I looked at him and faked a smile," Yea why?" "You're lying. I know something is up." "You know me too well." I rested my head on his shoulder and told him the story. "I'm so sorry Cas... you don't deserve this." "It's ok, it's not your fault."
Spencer grabbed my face and made me look at him," I love you Cassandra. You mean everything to me." "Thank you Spencer. I needed that." He kissed me and I kissed him back. After a few seconds he ended up on top of me. And after that, he was starting to take off my shirt. I pushed him away lightly," I can't do this... I'm sorry." A tear ran down my cheek. "What's wrong love?" he asked me, concern in his voice. "I'm not ready. Not yet... especially not right now in the state I'm in." "Cassy... I'm sorry for rushing you..." he said getting off of me. "No I'm sorry." "Come on. Let's go to the cabin." "Ok."
We went to the cabin and I went into the room I was in last time. "Goodnight." "Spencer." "Yea." "I want you to sleep here with me." "Really, but I thought you said-" "I said I wasn't ready for that, but I want you here with me though." "Ok beautiful," he said with a smile," Just give me a minute." "Ok, I'll be in the bathroom changing." "Ok."
I went into the bathroom and I saw him walk into another bedroom.

Spencer:
I walked into my room and took out my phone. I texted my best friend Alexander.
Me: It didn't happen -_-
Alexander: She didn't sleep with you? 😂
Me: No she said he wasn't ready
Alexander: Well that sucks for you
Me: I don't understand I have never been rejected before
Alexander: Maybe that's you have never had a girlfriend before 😂 lmao
Me: 😂 Yup that's totally it but anyways she said she wanted me to sleep in her room though what am I supposed to do if I can't do it with her
Alexander: Wow Spencer just wrap your arms around her and go to sleep that's it
Me: Wow that's no fun
Alexander: 😂 Jesus just go with her
Me: Ok ok bye
Alexander: Bye
I walked back into the room she was in. She was looking down at her phone and smiling. "What you looking at?" I asked. She looked up at me," Oh my sister sent me a picture of her and her friends." "Oh well that's nice. Can I see?" "Yea sure." She showed me the picture. I could tell that her sister was at a club. Lucky her.
I remembered my time at the club with Cassandra and chuckled. "What are you laughing at?" she asked with a confused look. "I just remembered when we went to the club together." "Oh my god, no. Don't even remind me." I laughed and got on the bed next to her. I kissed her forehead," Goodnight gorgeous." "Goodnight." I wrapped my arms around her and she didn't push me away. 'Good job Alexander,' I thought.
I felt Cassandra's breathing slow down. She had fallen asleep. My mind was running with ideas in my head. 'I have seen her in her bra before... but what if... no stop thinking about it... ugh... just go to sleep.' I pushed all thoughts from my head and fell asleep.