Mind Heart Soul

Be Happy

you're a murderer you foul beast
the cruelest of thoughts you unleash
you self destruct
you were born corrupt
taking my life away from me
i try to run and flee
but you hold me down
maybe i'll just give up and drown
into the depths of this perilous ocean
of my psychotic depression
to ease the pain i'll slice my wrists
contradicting
you insist
actually it's chaotic bliss
i used to be so different
now i'm a fucking detriment
is this bad or good
tell me what i should
do
i don't have a damn clue
sorry for my profanity
just trying to express my insanity
i kinda like it though
my insanity i mean
feels like a wild and scary dream
you know i've always been a fan of horror
i'm on the brink of border
line obsession
with my happiness recession
take my life
take it now
i should not be proud
of my convulsing and screaming
force myself to look up at the ceiling
are you there God
do you understand what i'm feeling
why won't you say something
don't make me feel like nothing
i feel so fucking alone
caution!
hazardous zone
yellow tape around my head
don't get too close
you'll wish you were dead
i'm in a fiery romance
with this eerily delightful dance
we do not kiss and tell
i'm only a shell
of the being i once was
now all that's left
are mourning doves
i've been dead for awhile now
my funeral held downtown
i'm laughing at them all
as they weep and bawl
fucking suck sadistic freak
what?
who me?
but then my eyes start to soften
as he walks down holding the coffin
no!
i promised i wouldn't hurt him!
another check off my list of sins
please
don't get to know me
find a chance to be happy