Mind Heart Soul

Choose

A lot of the time I don't want to live
Everything hurts
And my brain feels like it's going to collapse
I cry
All the time
For myself
For everyone
For everything
My life is strange
And I don't know if I want it
I make myself suffer through glorious highs
But always escape back to my lows
My words are art
My art is my words
I was always the silent one
Now I'm louder than ever
People still never listen
What am I living for
Who
Myself?
Maybe
I crave a peaceful death
So chaotic and wild
My kind of peace
But they're there
They're staring at me wide eyed
They don't want me to go
But only I can choose to stay
Will they understand
Life is full
But what is Death
Is it grand
As grand as life truly is
Or just a sliver of that
My selfishness helps me stay
But also convinces me to go