Rain

Chapter 28

No one said she would ever feel like this. Her stomach felt like a thousand bees had been let loose in there. She raised her hands to her face, they were shaking slightly. A deep breath, she instructed, her body obeying her but a shaky sigh betrayed her.

This felt like torture.

I can't do this, she began to think, she stood up and paced her room, feeling restless. She rubbed her hands together hoping to warm it up, it felt like ice, cold and heavy.

"What are you doing?" she spun around to find Nessa in a lavender strapless silk dress that swept the ground as she walked there was a cream flower brooch on her dress. She wore simple stud earrings to complete her look.

"I....don't know" she continued rubbing her hands together

"Don't you think it's cold here" she blurted once Nessa moved the mirror in front of her.

"No, I don't think so; I do think you are having cold feet now. Look at yourself" she looked up and saw a beautiful woman looking back at her, dressed in a white gown , the bodice encrusted with shiny gems flowing out at the waist in smooth lace. Her sleeves were made of see through lace too. Her hair she didn't know what they did to it but it had been parted and styled in a sort of bun at the left side of her head, her veil rested on her shoulders.

"That's you" Nessa smiled knowingly, "And this is your day"

"But I think I might be too young to get married"

"I was way younger when I married Adam, there is a vast difference between 20 and 24, be it just four years. You are just feeling anxious and trying to find straws to escape the feeling, it's normal" Rhoda's voice came from behind her. She turned regarding her with a sigh.
"You are beautiful Rain, Fred is really a lucky man. Trust me"

"You think so?"

"Of course I think so but with the way you are looking now, the hug I wanted to give you has to wait before you start bawling right now and ruin your makeup. Don't let any last minute thoughts ruin your day"

But it's about your brother, she wanted to yell.

"Come on Nessa, someone's calling for you" she watched both of them walk out, leaving her alone.

She closed her eyes, recalling her words to Fred about how marriage was built on Trust. She couldn't even trust herself right now.

God help me she sighed coming to a decision. She could not and would not do this to Fred.

Opening her eyes, she stared at the door which opened at the same moment her eyes did.
He entered and stood there looking at her, mouth open and both stared quietly.

"You look...look beautiful....I mean you look really beautiful"
That was a first; he had never looked as flustered as he did now. He swallowed when she didn't speak and took a deep breath.

"You are beautiful" he said once he was collected.

"You are not supposed to be back here" she said quietly.

He nodded, "I know and I know you need this"

She looked at him confused, "What?"

Moving closer, he stopped when his shoes touched the hem of the gown she wore. "I know"

"What do you know?"

"That you are confused and I know it's not because of me"

"Fred you really shouldn't be here" she said just needing him out of her room that instant.