The shadows on wallows drive

LENONS POV

         To say this is awkward is an understatement,
But I can feel myself slowly catching feelings for Zack.
Which has never happened to me before.
Zack and I lay out the blanket onto the ground and place rocks on each corner to make sure it remains on the ground.
"It's beautiful here" I practically yell spinning in circles.
"My grandpa used to farm this field when he was alive" Zack says smiling.
I look at my feet and think of my grandma.
"I'm really sorry Zack, my grandma died in a car wreck a few years back".
He looks at me and shrugs his shoulders.
I sit down on the blanket with my hands folded on my lap.
"Scone?" He says handing me a basket.
I pull out a scone and thank him.
"We can stay and watch the sun set if you'd like?"
Zack states staring into my eyes.
I smile and nod my head.
Mother expects me home in an hour but I don't need to tell him that. She'll have to deal with my decision.
     Twenty minutes pass of Zack and I telling stories of our grandparents and childhood.
"When I was younger, my grandpa would drive me around on his tractor in this very field", he says biting into a scone.
I smile thinking of a little Zack bopping up in down on a tractor, my thought is interrupted when I hear
"Lenon you have the most beautiful eyes".
I don't say anything.
" I don't think I have ever met anyone with such gorgeous purple eyes", he says again.
I can feel myself blushing.
No one has ever said that I am beautiful in anyway. I figured I was regular and boring.
I smile and scoot a little closer.
As the sun begins to set, we don't say a word to each other. Although we get closer and closer as the sun continues to go down.
Eventually I feel his hand slide upon mine.
I look at him, his eyes are shining in the golden hour sun and his hair is blowing in the breeze flawlessly. I look away and begin to smile,
And I know he noticed because he laughed and gripped onto my hand.
"Stop" I heard.
I quickly pulled my hand away.
"Is everything ok?" Zack says concerned.
"Bad" I heard.
I hugged my knees to my chest and didn't say a word.
"Hurt him", I heard.
"Lenon is everything ok".
I looked at Zack and back in front of me.
"Bad, hurt him, bad". I kept hearing whispers.
I suddenly felt very overwhelmed with emotion.
I could not listen to the voice. It was easy to hurt myself but I could hurt Zack.
I began to panic. I was struggling to catch my breath and I began to sob.
Zack stood on his knees and put his hands on his shoulders.
"Lenon, are you ok say something!" He said practically yelling.
I did not answer. I felt so angry at the voice and I could not keep it in.
I saw Zack pick up his phone and call for my mom.
I felt trapped and I did not know what to do.
"Something is wrong with lenon, I. I don't know what to do please come help we are at wallows field",
Zack says starting to cry to my mom.
So, I screamed.
"Not bad!" I was screaming so loud that Zack dropped the phone.
I was sobbing, Zack crawled over to me and wrapped his arms around me as I sobbed to him.
I'm that moment I knew I had found a friend.
He stroked my hair and told me it would be ok.
I sat up and we just stared into each other's eyes for a while.
A few minutes pass and my tears have dried.
I find Zack leaning in closer and I am too?
We are so close to each other and he starts looking at my lips.
Are we going to kiss?
"LENNIE".
I jump and look away from Zack to find my mom running up the hill with a big bucket of water.
Way to ruin the moment.
"Lenon we are leaving now, you were supposed to be home 2 hours ago!" Mother says grabbing my arm.....