MY NERD

Chapter 25

"Convert bad news to good news"

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"So, how long are you going to keep this up?" Ari asked as we were studying for our final exam we will be having in the next 3 weeks.

"Huh" I responded not moving my focus from the book.

She got up snatching the book from my grip.

"Eyyyy" I protested

"How long ally, we got back from that trip 3 weeks now school have been open for 2, what happened that night?"

"Nothing happened" I said trying to grab my book back.

"Oh really? let me see" she said rubbing her chin like she was thinking "You and kai not talking did not give it away at all, you , him and Mai practically ignoring each other sure didn't give it away"

"Really we didn't, so why are you asking about it" she glared at me.

"Ally stop" she said angry

"Stop what? You brought up the story" I said getting a little annoyed.

"Maybe because I want to know why my best friend is practically pretending that she's okay and her life is a colorful rainbow while ignoring the guy she's in love with"

"Trust me my life is far from a colorful rainbow and I do not love him"

Laughing she said " You can lie to him but not me Ally, I know you're in love with the kai and you have been since you met him"

"What is wrong with you people telling me what I freaking feeling and don't feel, my mom is pressuring me to talk to the woman that abandoned me, you and Clair is pressuring me about Kai, like can i make my own damn decision" I shout angrily.

"Yes you can, but when your decision is stupid i'm here to tell you and always will be, whether you like it or not whether you want to hear it or not"

"We will be going to college soon, we will be going our separate ways so why push something that's going to end Ari"

"Because you don't know that, you don't know what will happened but you don't want to find out either, you're so stuck on something bad happening that you're not even giving it a chance to happen" she was right I know she was right but the stubborn me wasn't going to listen.

"Ally I just want you to be happy and if i'm being honest I've never seen you as happy as you are with kai so call me selfish for wanting him for you, I just don't know why you're not opening up to him"

"Because i'm scared Ari" I finally admit

"i'm scared to love, i'm scared to feel, i'm scared to let myself be opened to someone and let them see the part I've never shown to anyone before, i'm not the girl someone will pick out a crowd full with girl, i'm not the girl anyone will pick out of a huge crowd or notice so when kai did I was surprise why me how can he love me when my own mother and father didn't, who can love me when my own parents didn't, this isn't a fairytale it's reality, it's my reality" I said dropping to the ground in tears.

"I can, aunty Celine and Uncle John can, Kai can and anyone will be stupid not to pick you out of a crowd full of girl, do you know why? Because you are different and different stands out" she said hugging me.

Sometimes my best-friend can be really sentimental and it reminds me of the reason why I love her and why i'm the luckiest girl to have her in my life.

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~KAI~

"Where are you guys going?" Clair asked as Ian and I got downstairs dressed.