𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐓𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 - jack avery

13 - The Visits

October 17, 2016

~Janelle's POV~

     We sat patiently in the lobby, waiting for more information on Jack. All I know right now is that he was probably walking along a boardwalk and somehow fell off. The doctors predict that Jack hit his head and was knocked out, explaining why he was unconscious. We've been here for a few hours now, but I still couldn't get myself together.
     Tears were filled in my eyes since we arrived at the hospital. The boys and I were able to visit Jack for a few minutes, but had to leave so the doctors can examine him. Jonah and Corbyn left a while ago so they can look after the house. Daniel, Zach, and I were supposed to keep them updated, but it's hard when we don't even know what's going on.
     I felt an arm wrap around my shoulders. I look over to see Zach moving closer to me. I wiped my tears and leaned my head against his. Daniel walked over to us and sat on the other side of me. He took my hand and held it tightly. It felt good to have two people there for me when I really needed it.
     My eyes started to close and my breathing became more steady. I managed to relax myself, knowing my best friends were right by my side. My thoughts started to drift off, when suddenly the door to the waiting room opened. I quickly sat up, and we watched as Jack's doctor walked in.

"Are you three here for Jack Avery?" She kindly asks. We nod our heads.
"Y-yes. Is he ok?" I say shaking a little.
"He is doing just fine. We are allowing visitors to come see him, but only one at a time."

     I looked at Zach, then Daniel. They nodded their heads, giving me permission to go first. I stood up and followed the doctor into Jack's room. I saw him laying down on his bed, still and lifeless. I felt a tear fall down my cheek.

"I will give you some alone time." The doctor whispered. She walked out and I sat on the chair next to Jack's bed.
I take a deep breath, "Jack.. I know you can't hear me. But.."

     I hesitated. I was never the person to share their feelings a lot. I often kept my thoughts inside, only letting them out on video. But this wasn't on video. This was real, it was actually happening.

I shook my head, "I'm sorry Jack. I'm sorry for being such a terrible friend. You have done so much for me, and I never did anything in return."
I stop and take another deep breath, "I know, this past year has been rough. And I was stupid enough to believe that it was all your fault.. but Jack. It wasn't.. it was all my fault."

     I let out a loud sob. I led him into this. I allowed Jack to get mad at Zach, when he should of been mad at me. I didn't push Zach away when he kissed me, and I hurt Jack because of it.
     I made Jack do so many stupid things when we were kids. Like climbing the tree, letting him get between me and the bullies in middle school. I led him into my love life, and he was suspended for doing so. It was all my fault.
     My sobbing continued as I held tightly onto Jack's hand. I didn't want him to go, he deserved better. I don't deserve a friend like him. Jack has done too much for me, and I haven't done anything back. I'm done with this. I'm done feeling like I'm not wanted. Nobody deserves me as a friend, or a person at all.
     I run out of the hospital room and out to my car. I knew that Daniel and Zach saw me, but I didn't care. I just wanted to be alone..

~Zach's POV~

     I watched as Janelle ran out of the hospital. I tried to follow her, but Daniel held me down. I looked at him and he shook his head. I nodded and sat back down. The doctor came back out into the waiting room, letting another person see Jack.

"You can go." Daniel whisper into my ear.
I looked at him, "You sure he would want to see me?"
"We know Jack. He can't stay mad at you for long. Now get up and go!" Daniel pushed me forward.
"Well make up your mind. You want me to sit or stand?" I say sarcastically. Daniel rolls his eyes.

     I stand up and follow the doctor. I walk in to see Jack still asleep, thankfully. He would probably force me out if he was awake.
     I walk up to the side of his bed and look down at him. The curly haired boy I once called my best friend. He probably hates me now, but I wouldn't leave him for a second. I sat down in the chair and shook my head.

"Listen, Jack. I'm so sorry for this. It's my fault for you doing this. I was just so jealous of you and Janelle, I couldn't stand it." I closed my eyes, trying to hold back the tears.
"That night when I kissed her, it was all me. Not Janelle. During that house tour, when I asked her to sit next to me. I just wanted a little time with her, but I guess I rubbed it the wrong way on you." I couldn't hold the tears back anymore.
"I didn't mean to hurt you, Jack. I promise. But I'm young and stupid.. I hope you can understand that and forgive me. I swear, I won't touch Janelle again. We are only friends, and that's it."

     I looked back down at Jack. He was so calm and peaceful. Janelle was lucky to have him, and he is lucky to have her. They are perfect for each other. No best friends know each other better than they do.
     I stand up and walk out of the room. I said everything I had to. The rest of my explaining is saved for later, when Jack is able to know how exactly I feel. If he ever wakes up...

~Daniel's POV~

     Zach walks out with the doctor. He nods at me and I stand up. I guess its my turn now.
     I walk back into Jack's hospital room. He's just laying there, emotionless. It's kind of scary. I sit down next to him, staying quiet. I honestly have no idea what to say. I don't have this huge story to tell like Zach and Janelle do. Makes me feel like a bad friend almost.
     Wait, I do have a story. Not like the last ones though. I turn towards Jack, and I put my hand on his.

"You know me, Daniel James Seavey. I know you, Jack Robert Avery. We met at that concert a few months ago. If people were to ask us back then if we would ever become friends, we would probably say yes. Best friends though? We would probably say no." I rub my eyes, wiping away the faint tears.
"You are so much more than a bandmate or me, Jack. You really are my best friend. But I feel like we have barely gotten to know each other. I have been so wrapped up in other things. If you were to leave us, I would never forgive myself for not giving us the time to talk. It's just too soon, I can't let you go yet."

I wipe my eyes clean again. That's all I feel like I can say, nothing else. I stand up and start walking out of the room. Before I could exit, I hear someone whisper.

"Daniel?"

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Author's Note:
I was listening to 'Changes' by xxxtentacion while writing this. It got me in the perfect mood to write the chapter, so I thank you Pandora for supplying this beautiful song to me.
(you should listen to it if you haven't already)

-Stina :)