Yoonmin- Delusions [M.YG • P.JM]

12- How Do I Know?

Jimin's POV

The thought of loving someone kept bouncing around in my head. In all my years, I've never been given the opportunity to feel that electricity with another person. I actually don't even know how it's supposed to feel. Jungkook and Taehyung have it. Namjoon and Jin-hyung have it. Should I ask them?

I looked up from my partially drawn cat and took my crayon up off the paper.

"Namjoon-hyung?" I called, he lifted his head up to find me, his eyes landing on where the voice came from. Jin, who he was with, also paused to turn to look at me. "How did you know you liked Jin-hyung?"

"Uh..." Namjoon scratched the back of his neck, Jin giggling a bit as he looked to see what Namjoon had to say. "It's really hard to explain. To put it simply, although it isn't, you just know."

"But how," I said, stressing the last word. I was tired of being told that I'd just know. What could tell me that it's happening? Have I felt it before and didn't know because I don't know how to tell what the feeling was?

"Love is complex," he started.

"Yeah, Yoongi told me. I know. There's different ways to love."

"But you want to know about the kind that's more than friends right?" I nodded my head. "Well, so first there's another person, of whatever gender your preference is, and you'll respond to two things. Their looks, because humans just naturally like people who are attractive to the eye. And their personality, which is how they express themselves naturally. It's always unique. And sometimes people find personalities attractive."

"But you can't see it." I pointed out, Namjoon just smiling at my comment.

"That's where the feelings come in. You always respond to someone's personality, and if it's always positive, you'll find that you want to be around them more. When you feel that you want to stay around that person a lot, not just for the comfort of a friend, but for just their mere presence, then that's when you know." His eyes averted to look at Jin. For their mere presence. I think I'm beginning to understand now. Hopefully I become aware of this when I'm unconsciously doing it.

"Taehyung-ah," I called for the next person who's had the experience.

"Yes, hyung?" Taehyung looked up from his completed drawing of a bunny he was adding the finished touches to.

"How did you know you liked Jungkook?"

Taehyung shrugged. "It was mostly my DPD, but I began to like him despite my condition. It was like I started to want him around more, not just my DPD that was making me think that. He made my heart feel funny."

"Did it hurt?"

"No, no. It felt funny as in it's unfamiliar. You don't get it often, so it's a very distinct feeling."

"Oh." Taehyung went back to adding hairs onto his drawing. "So, what's the feeling you get when someone touches you?" Taehyung paused to answer my question again.

"Uhh you mean like an orgasm?"

"What's that?"

"Shit, never mind," he said quietly. "Tell me what you mean."

"Like when someone touches your thigh and you get a feeling in your stomach," I said, lowering my voice.

"Like you want more?" I nodded my head frantically as he worded it correctly. "Oh, that. It's such a good feeling. It's like a mix of nervousness and fear, yet you still want it. Like a roller coaster." Taehyung laughed softly. "It could mean you like them, or that you're turned on."

"I'm not a toy!" I giggled at the silly thought.

"It doesn't mean you have a switch, Jimin. Well, figuratively, yes. Like a switch turned on, and you don't want to turn it off because you're now begging for it not to stop."

"That's weird." I admitted. I didn't think that would come with love at all. "Well, I learned a lot. Thanks Tae."

"Yeah, no problem. Hey, do you think this looks like Jungkook?" He held his paper up and showed it to me. The big eyes that looked a lot like Jungkook's innocently round ones, and the black fur that matched his hair. It did look like him.

I nodded in agreement.

"Good, because I'm thinking of giving it to him when I see him," he said, excitedly smiling.

Then looked down at my drawing of a cat, trying to find some similarities to Yoongi.

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End of Chapter