The Aftermath
Sarah was lying in bed, lying next to his boyfriend. His arms were draped across her and his face was near her neck. She was happy and content. No regrets. She couldn’t believe she had the courage to initiate making love with Gerald. Countless times in the past, she wondered if this would ever happen to her and honestly, there was no one else she wished to do it with, except for him. He was the only person she could ever imagine sharing this kind of intimacy. Gerald was an amazing lover! He was very considerate of her. She felt loved and worshipped. Being with him made her feel beautiful and sexy!
She smiled at the thought of how brazen she was. “Gano’n pala when you’re ‘in the zone’” she thought to herself.
Gerald stirred and slowly opened his eyes, “Hi babe!” He said, his smile starting to light up his face.
Sarah touched his face and tearfully said. “Hi love...” She was overwhelmed with emotions. For her, they were the only two people in the world.
“O, what’s wrong? Why are you crying? Was I that awful? ” He said jokingly..
“Hinde...ikaw talaga! You know it was great for me..” she said shyly and added, “ I just...pa’no ko ba sasabihin...Ang galing lang kase ng Diyos...There was a time for me after I left you when I almost lost all hope of ever.....finding the kind of happiness I had with you. I regretted what I did every single day and replayed that scene in my head over and over again. Minsan sa gitna ng trabaho o kapag mag-isa ako sa gabi, nakikita ko lagi yung kamay ko sa pinto at iniisip ko na dapat binuksan ko siya. Dapat tinawag kita...dapat bumaba ako. In my head, I stepped out and chased after you and we would’ve climbed those steps together. And sometimes, I could almost feel you touch me...I always see the smile you give me. Tapos parang siyang bulang pumuputok and I’d realize it was all in my head. I cemented my fate by closing that door, ‘yan ang iniisip ko. “ Gerald held her hand as if reassuring her. “Nung nakita ko na nag-artista ka, akala ko, hahanapin mo ako. I was always waiting and wishing you’d call or see me. Minsan, ‘pag may kotseng parang titigil sa harap ko, ini-imagine ko na ikaw ‘yung bababa at magiging okay na ulit lahat..”
“Bakit hindi ka tumawag? O hanapin man lang ako...” He asked Sarah...
“Ge, wala akong karapatan sa ‘yo after what I did. Out of all the people in this world, you deserve to be happy the most. And I wasn’t sure if I could give that to you. ...”
“Hinintay din kita eh...pero naisip ko, naka-move on ka na...”
“ And then nagka-movies ka na and series ...and minsan, pag malakas ang loob ko, napapanood kita. Nakikipagkulitan, nakikipagbiruan...lalo na sa ASAP, nakikita ko happy ka. At kahit paano, masaya ako for you. Walang halong biro. “
Gerald took a moment before he answered, “Masaya ako kase people expect me to be. When I’m in front of the camera, I can be whoever I wanna be. And I buried myself with showbiz life at the start. Nakakalula how everything is this big in my industry. Pero, pag mag-isa na ko with no one else but my thoughts, there’s an ache that won’t go away...and then I think of you. Often, with anger because I couldn’t imagine what I ever did to you to deserve being left alone. Pero minsan...hindi ako galit, nararamdaman ko ‘yung pangungulila. ‘Yung parang namatayan ng taong mahal mo. And I remember those 2 weeks we were together...wow! I asked myself kung makakahanap pa ‘ko ng tao who’d make me feel that way. It makes me hope for...love. But then I never imagined feeling that way for someone. No one ever measured up to you babe. And now, I want to believe in destiny. You are the one. You’re my destiny..”
Sarah’s tears then started to flow. “ I love you so, so much...”
And just like that Gerald kissed Sarah ever so sweetly. There were no hurrying this time or was there any frantic pacing. She responded to his kisses nibbling his lips. He tasted her tears as his tongue touched her lips encouraging it to open.
He shifted his body and was half on top of her. His hands were on her face wiping away her tears, then gently caressing first her lips then down her neck and trailing down her body. Sarah felt his reverence ...Gerald’s hands were trembling as he realized how completely she has given herself to him. He too felt overwhelmed with feelings of awe ... he knew she was capable of this kind of love despite the imperfection of their past. His eyes followed where his hands were going and when his hands finally cupped her breast, he felt a need so intense. He was speechless, and couldn’t think. He leaned forward, looked at her face. She was beautiful. She then slowly kissed her lips once more, tasting it.
“I want you babe...” Gerald whispered as he nibbled her ears, his hand continuing to knead her chest, paying equal attention to both. She responded by gasping and moaning ever so softly.
His lips moved lower and burned a hot trail down her body. When he reached the soft swell of her breasts, he looked at her and saw her eyes glaze with desire. Emboldened, he kissed them one at a time. Gerald felt like it was his first. His need was so strong. Only with Sarah. When she started to touch him, his desire grew a thousandfold and he was enveloped with a need so great. Sarah was writhing beneath her as he continued to kiss her in places she has never imagined. He noticed her starting to quicken and squirm, her breathing started to change. Her hands touched him everywhere, his head, on his back and holding his shoulders tightly. It was beginning to get harder to hold back seeing Sarah on the verge of heaven. He entered her and moved within her, slow and gentle at first then picking up speed.
“Sarah...” he moaned her name and felt her convulse beneath him. Her fingers raking his skin. He thanked the heavens she found her release and quickly followed, unable to contain himself any longer...
Gerald collapsed , unable to move. He knew he was probably too heavy for her but he couldn’t help it and wanted to catch his breath.. He then looked at her cupping her face saying, “Grabe babe, is it always gonna be like this for us? ” Gerald teased her.
“I hope so love ...I hope so..” Sarah said, half worrying that everything was too good to be true.
