His Royal Guard (Completed)

41. The Wedding Is Cancelled

Forth POV.

We are in the meeting hall right now. The king, Prince Wayo, Phana, Kit, Ming, Beam and Me. We are discussing our wedding ceremony tomorrow. Can't believe I am going to marry the love of my life tomorrow. It is nerves racking, yet excited at the same time. The idea to be able to call Beam as mine for real, makes me feel giddy inside. Can tomorrow come sooner?

"So everything is ready for tomorrow. The maids have finished decorating the palace's backyard last night. I would say, the white and red roses are a great combination, N'Kit." The King says.

"Thank you, my king."

"Oooohhh~~~ I am excited for tomorrow. Can't wait to marry you P'KitKat." Ming says excitedly like a 5 years old kid about to open his Christmas present. Kit, on the other hand, just blush to hear what Ming said.

"Yeah. Me too. Can't wait to call you mine, Beamie." I kiss the back of his hand. But somehow Beam is acting all fidgety and looking everywhere but me.

"Hhmm..actually..." Beam looks at me apologetically. "Actually, I want to cancel my wedding."

The whole hall become dead silent.

I hold his hand tighter. "You are joking, right, Beam?"

Beam POV.

Forth hold my hand tighter. The look in his eyes clearly tell me he is afraid of losing me. O God. Am I doing the right thing? But nonetheless, I nod my head, "I am not joking, P'Forth." I can't bear looking at him in the eyes.

P'Forth stands up and storm out of the hall. I want to chase him and tell him it is just a joke, but I can't because it is not. I can only hang my head down, letting go the person I love.

"Why Beam?" Phana breaks the silence. Even I am not looking at him, the disappointment is evident in his voice.

"When I visit our hometown yesterday, I miss our parents so much." Tears start to drop from my eyes.

"That's not the real reason, right?" He continues.

"I am afraid, if I am to attach to him, when one day he is gone, I can't bear the pain. I don't want to go through the same pain of losing our parents again." I bury my face in my palms.

Kit comes to me and hug me tight to console me. As he hugs me, he looks at Ming with an apologetic look.

"Please, P'Kitkat. Please don't leave me." Ming plead.

Phana massage his temple. "I won't stop you, Beam. Because ultimately, it is your choice. But I just want to ask you one thing. If one day P'Forth really gone, won't you regret not spending every possible minute with him?"

I freeze. Will I really won't regret it later?

"N'Beam. I have to admit, losing the person you love is hard and painful. I have been through it and I know that feeling. I love the late queen so much, even now." He looks at Prince Wayo. "She was like a bright sunshine im the spring. Always bring warm to everyone around her. She was always there to cheer me. Losing her, it is painful. Everyday I miss her. But what make it bearable and keep me going forward, are our memories together. And of course Wayo, our precious prince. What I want to say is, even one day they are physically gone, they will always be with us, here, inside our heart. Furthermore we don't know what will happen in the future, so we should cherish the present"

I feel like I was struck by lightning. I gently push Kit away from me and dash out of the chamber. Forgive me P'Forth.

As I almost reach the palace main gate, his bike zipped past the gate. Shit! I missed him. Now how am I going to find him?

Forth POV.

After I dashed out of the meeting hall, I immediately ride my bike away from the palace. I don't have any specific place to go, so just ride my bike aimlessly. I keep thinking what Beam said. Why?! Why?! Did I do something wrong?! Aarrgghh!!! All these questions making my head dizzy, so I stop by the roadside. When I look around to figure out where I am, I see a big gate. So I have reached here, hah.

I walk through the gate and keep walking, until I reach at two tombstones.

"Mom, dad, looks like your son is destined to be alone forever." Tears start to cloud my vision and fall om my knees.

"I love him so much, mom, dad. But why did he reject me in the last minute? Our wedding is just tomorrow." I keep crying there for don't how long when suddenly I feel a pair of hand wrap around my waistline and someone's head rest on my back.

"I am sorry P'Forth." I try to peel his hands from me, but he just tighten his hug.

"Just go away Beam." I say to him dejectedly.

"Please listen to me first P'Forth. I was scared. Yesterday we went to visit our old village. I remembered how painful it was to lose someone you really love. And I don't want to go through it again. Because if I lose you too, I won't survive, P'Forth. Because I love you so much."

I can feel his tears soaking my shirt.

"But Pha and the King make me realized, not spending every moment possible with the love of your life, is much more painful once they are really gone."

"So what you want now Beam?" I ask him as I turn to look at him.

"Marry me." And he kiss me passionately, letting go all of his insecurity.