Would You Rather |Jung Hoseok; Min Yoongi| [Completed]

Chapter 27

"Ah, hey Jungkookie!" I said excitedly to the phone. "I know you haven't met me in this life and you probably don't remember me, but I just wanted to get this off my chest." I took a deep breath, exhaling slowly, trying to keep my mind clear. "Please hear me out, please don't close this voice message and hear me till the end. You may not know me now, but you might remember later on, remember how close we were. We were practically inseparable, but this damn game changed us, made us grow further apart. You saw me as an older brother and I respected that, but I couldn't help but feel something more than that." My bottom lip trembled, a sob escaping me, "You know? I was always the one looking up to you. You were so perfect in so many ways, there was no way I could not- That I couldn't..." I clenched the phone tighter, unable to say how I truly felt. "There was no way I couldn't fall for you." After that I took a sharp breath, taking in the smell of the sea. "I'm sorry... but I have to do this."

I took a step closer, my knees feeling like jello, my feet literally trembling. I sent the voice message and called the only other person I was sure could remember. We weren't very close, but at this moment he was my best option.

"Hello, this is Min Yoongi. Please leave a message after the beep or like, you could just leave me alone. I'm probably sleeping."

"Shit." I whispered and closed my eyes tightly. "Hey Yoongi!" I babbled, but still tried to laugh it off later on, even if I sounded like a train wreck. "Hey, Yoongi." I repeated, this time calmer, more serious. "I don't know how to say this, I never really got to know how to start a conversation with you, but I'll be straightforward." I scoffed and opened my eyes, seeing the first indications that the sun was raising. "You were always the serious one when we needed you to be, and always the mood maker when no one else was really feeling it. I admit, I never really liked you at first, but you opened my eyes. I judged you and I feel guilty about it." I jerked my head to the side, slapping my forehead. "God, I don't know why I said that... it's just that I don't know what to say... I wanted to open myself to you too, just like you did for me. That's why I wanted to call you now. I'm ready to open up and I wanted to confess how I felt towards everybody, but unfortunately you're the only one who remembers everything from the very beginning. It came to my realisation that we regain our memories a short while before we die. That's why I wanted to call you, to confirm with you if it was the same with the others around you." I tried to suppress my sob as I remembered what happened, but I had to tell him. "Two days ago, Jimin... Jimin tried telling me something, but I couldn't understand. He looked so desparate... desperate for what, I do not know, but he said to watch out. The traitor is among us. That's all he said before he drowned... before he took his own life. I can't do this anymore Yoongi." I wept, tears running down my cheeks. I wiped them frantically with the back of my hand, but that didn't help, more came back. I cried and sobbed until I was unable to speak properly, but the message had to be said. "Yoongi, I can't hold it in anymore! Seeing them die over and over and over again breaks a person and I was already broken to begin with! Seeing Jimin dead in front of me was my breaking point. Seeing Jungkook die every single time  was not only my breaking point, but my fucking boiling point." I turned around and walked away from the edge, trying to calm myself. "Yoongi... Thank you for stepping in when MinJee was in the park." I whispered, a ghost of a smile appeared on my face. "I still can't forgive myself for what I did last time. Please... protect her." I finally said and hit send.

Taking deep breaths, I took off my jacket and laid it on the wooden ground, leaving my phone right next to it. My eyes were now closed, trying to remember how it was before all this happened. I tried going back and imagine all the time we spent together. Oh, I'm so gonna miss this bunch of weirdos and morons I call friends. They were everything to me and they will always remain this way, no matter what happens in the future.

You may ask why am I doing this? Well, it's simple really. Would you live in a world where you're separated from the people you love? Would you do what I'm doing if you had a second chance? Yeah, you probably would, but unfortunately I'm not doing this to get a second chance. I'm probably never gonna make it this time. Why? Because I tried going against the game and now I have to deal with the consequences. It was either them dying in my arms or I get permanently deleted.

Taehyung, focus.

Focus.

Focus.

Just... don't think about anything and jump.

Just jump you coward!

I opened my eyes and tried to enjoy the view while it lasted. The barely rising Sun, it's rays decorating the morning sky, had slightly blinded me. Not my eyes, but my mind, fooling me into thinking that the sun will always rise after the darkest hour.

I took a single step forward and that led to my feet running forward until there was no ground to run on.

I can breath calmly.

I'm free.

I can finally spread my wings.