Would You Rather |Jung Hoseok; Min Yoongi| [Completed]

Chapter 36

A/N: Sorry for disappearing for so long😖😖 I have tests and I'm trying to focus more on them, sorry!
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The moment I closed the door behind me, that was the moment that I collapsed. Not physically, but mentally. I just couldn't look him in the eyes any longer, the eyes of a traitor.

Hoseok promised me, he promised he'd never hurt my mother, but here we are in this mess. It was all his fault. I am to blame, but it was his fault originally. I hope the guilt crushes him one day. I hope everytime he closes his eyes, he remembers what he's done to her, to all of us... I just hope he remembers.

I took out my phone and looked at the screen, a single voice message lighting the screen.

I closed my eyes in attempt to push the tears away, but it was too late. I sat on the ground and looked at the time, eventhough I already knew it. Everytime my dad was near his death, this single message would appear, breaking my heart and soul everytime I open it.

He first sent it to me years ago, before he died, more like years after this moment, but it felt like forever since I last heard it. Every single reincarnation, every single time he had to die, I would listen to it. I would smile at the sound of his loving voice. I would frown at the cracks of his sorrowful voice. I would cry at the final confession.

I opened the message and pressed the phone near my ear, clutching the phone like it would disappear any moment. It was the only item I had left from that time and I feared it would disappear any moment.

I mouthed his words, already knowing them by hard, but that didn't help me control my emotions. Somewhere out there, he's suffering. Somewhere out there my mom is slowly dying from the inside.

"Hey there little one! It's been so long since I heard your voice! I miss you and your mom so much! I hope that someday you'll look at me like you used to before. I miss you giggling at my lame jokes, I miss your mom's cute smile, I miss your feet struggling to run towards me whenever I got home from work. I miss all of you so much!" At this point I was crying together with him. At that moment my greatest desire was to hold him tightly, but I know this would only make things more complicated. He's out there struggling to find himself, wondering who he was, who he is. It was a mistake for Hoseok to alter his memories, but it was a greater mistake from me to leave them as they were. He deserves to know the truth. The whole truth. "Hey, Chiwon? You still listening? I was just wondering if he's treating you kindly? Is he nice to your mom? I know he's a nice person, so I know both of you are in good hands. I just... miss you so much." He took a deep sigh, following by an awful cough. He was dying. "I will always love you, Chiwon. Please remember that. I want to be the hero in your eyes, but I never knew it would be so hard. Please remember papa Yoongs loves you."