six months // m.e

1.1

"Please?"

"No."

"Please?"

"Matt, I said no."

"But it will be fun!"

"Not for me."

"Please?"

"No."

"I'll buy you food."

Pause.

"Fine."

My idea of a fun Friday night is watching movies. Matt's idea if a fun Friday night is going to a crazy party in downtown LA.

"You do realize that this party is probably going to get out of hand, right?" I asked. He shrugged.

"Yeah, but those are always the fun ones."

I rolled my eyes and walked to my closet. We were sitting on my bed watching Project Runway, but I really needed to figure out what I was going to wear.

"What are you doing?" Matt asked me.

"Looking for something to wear. I have like, no clothes." I replied. I pulled out a pastel pink romper with embroidery on the edges.

"What do you think of this?" I asked holding it up.

"I think that you will look perfect in anything you wear, like always."

I rolled my eyes and felt myself blush.

"So is that a yes?" I asked.

"Most definitely."

-

"Are you sure this looks okay?" I asked Matt as we stood in my bedroom.

"Nina, you look absolutely gorgeous, okay? Stop worrying about it. Plus, the only guy you need to be wowing is me, so don't look too good." He replied with a wink. I laughed and punched his arm.

"You're so stupid sometimes."

"Aren't we all?" He mumbled, casually glancing over at me.

"I guess so," I replied. "Okay, we have to leave. I don't want to be late."

-

We walked into the house and I was immediately offered a drink. I quickly took a sip, knowing that I wouldn't be able to handle all of this chaos if I was sober.

"I'm gonna go find my friend, I'll be right back." Matt yelled over the music. I nodded my head and started walking around. I saw a group of kids in the corner smoking hookah, so I decided to join them.

"Hi, I'm Nina." I said loudly.

"Uh, hi, Nina. it's nice to meet you. I'm Jack. You can call me Gilinsky, though." The boy with dark brown hair and eyes said with a smirk. He was extremely attractive, so I decided to sit next to him.

After a minute of sitting there doing nothing but smoking, Gilinsky turned and looked at me.

"So are you here with anyone?" He asked me.

"Well my best friend Matt kind of made me come. But only him," I smiled.

"Ahh, that's good. So does that mean I can do this?" He asked as he pushed his lips against mine. He pulled away and looked at me.

"Yeah, I'm okay with that." I smiled.

I took another sip of my drink. This was my third, no fourth, fourth beer, and I felt extremely tipsy. Okay, fine. I was past tipsy. I was wasted.

"You wanna go somewhere?" I felt Gilinsky whisper in my ear.

"Why go anywhere when we can do this right here?" I asked, crawling on top of him. He was sitting on a couch and I was straddling him.

I pushed my lips against his and felt his tongue ask for entrance, which I gladly gave him. It felt like we had been there for hours when I felt a tap on my shoulder.

I pulled away and looked at the angry Matt standing over me.

"C'mon, Nina. We're leaving." He scolded me.

"But I'm having fuuuuun," I giggled, leaning onto Jack.

"Well, fun's over. Say goodbye to your friend."

I looked at Jack and quickly pulled out my phone, handing it to him so he could put his number in. I saved his contact name as 'Hack Gulinsky' from my drunk typing skills, and then crawled off of him.

"I had a reaaaally good time. Text me!" I yelled with a wink. Matt rolled his eyes at me and grabbed my wrist, pulling me off to the car.

"Y'know, you're a really obnoxious drunk."

-

"Nin, this is ridiculous. Why did you let yourself get this wasted? And why did you make out with that guy? I thought I said-"

"Matt, don't be fake with me. I know that your 'friend' was some girl you went there to screw around with." I snapped. Even though I was drunk, I wasn't stupid.

"I, that, Nin, that's not what we're talking about."

"Noooo, of course not." I slurred. "We are gonna talk about how Matt can go and bang any girl he wants, but once Nina walks within ten feet of any male specimen, Matt has a freaking seizure. That's what we're gonna talk about, right?"

"Nina, stop. I don't have sex with that many girls-"

"No, you know what, you need to stop. Sit down." I ordered, pointing to my couch. He followed my command. I walked over and got on top of him, immediately attacking his lips with kisses.

At first he kissed me back, but the he pulled away.

"No, Nina, stop. Nin, please. You're drunk." He demanded. I continued to suck on his neck. He let out a small moan.

"Nina, stop." He commanded, trying to pull away. I stopped and looked at him.

"What? Is this not what you want? Do you not wanna screw me like you do the rest if your little friends?" I asked, cocking my head slightly to the side. I slid off the sleeves of my romper so it fell down to my waist. He looked down at my chest and then up at me. His breathing increased.

"Nina, please don't do this to me. I will stop, I promise. I won't mess with those other girls. You're not one of them, you're special okay?" He begged me. I continued to slowly strip off my clothes. I reached behind me and grabbed the clasp of my bra. He reached his hand behind me and grabbed my hand before I could continue.

"Nina, I'm serious. Stop. Yes, okay? I obviously want to mess around with you, but I'm not going to, especially not when you're drunk. Don't do this."

"Matt, did it ever cross your mind that I want this? That I want to get in your pants too? That I want to unclasp my bra?" I murmured in his ear. I felt him tense up underneath me. I smiled at how weak I made him, before returning my lips to his neck. I know he loved it, but he wouldn't let me.

"Nina, Godamnit, I'm serious! This isn't right! get off of me. We are going to bed." He yelled. That's when I unclasped my bra. He immediately put his hand over his eyes and let out a loud groan. He lifted his hand off of his eyes, but wouldn't break eye contact from me. I raised one eyebrow and smirked at him.

"I know you're testing me, but I'm not going to. I'm not going to take advantage of you." He said calmly. He reached down and grabbed the top of my romper, pulling it up over my chest. He then picked me up like a baby and carried me to my bedroom. I felt myself being laid down and then tucked in. He climbed into bed next to me and pulled me close to him.

"I love you Nina. I'm not about to screw our relationship up by making one shitty mistake." He whispered.

I didn't respond, I just smiled. Thats what I did until I fell asleep.

Smiled.