I do it to myself
The butterflies dying in your stomach
The voices in your head laughing
The heart feeling like steel weighing down your chest
The water leaving your eyes and slowly sliding down your cheek till it hits the floor
I do that
All to myself
Why?
Simply because I can't fight it
The urge to stay in your bed all day
The urge to avoid people
The urge to stay on your phone instead of leaving the house
The urge to punch a wall every time someone does something so little to aggravate you
At times you even forget to eat
I do it to myself because I listen
Everyone says "it'd get better" but when
When will the voices stop yelling at you
When will the mind stop telling you to be scared
When will the body learn to flight instead of fight
Eventually
Eventually the sky will clear and you won't feel heavy
But not now
Now tomorrow
Not the next day
Eventually
When the man watching over you decides you've learned
And until he does you push. As hard as you can.
Because without you what would the world be?
What would the world do
We all have a purpose
Wether it's to deliver mail or collect garbage with the garbage trucks
We all have a purpose, we were put here for a reason and it's left to us to find that reason
Sincerely
Asshole
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Things I Can't Say Out Loud
RandomI'm doing this because I've realized I'm stuck. I've realized that the thoughts are real and I need to except it. I'm doing this to help myself get to point A to point B with out anyone's help
