Thoughtless
When I speak I do it without thinking
My mouth moves before my brain has the time to process
So usually what happens is i end up saying something to offend someone
By someone
A person
A person I'm so deathly afraid of losing
They are the complete opposite of me tho
Nice, kind, talks with manners
I'm nice and kind but the way I talk can and will offend a lot of people and it dose—often but it's just the way I was raised and the way I talk to my friends
It's why I'm afraid to talk around her or to her because what I say even if I'm joking will hurt her feelings and that's the last thing I want to do
I tried
I gave it a shot
And I made her storm away from me without saying bye
She says she can't stay mad at me but It doesn't make me feel any less shittyer because I still upset her
I can just slap a bandage on it and expect it to fucking heal on its own
I need communicationeven if I'm not good at it I need it
I don't want to be this disrespectful person around her anymore because I'm afraid to disappoint her and I know I have she just won't tell me
Sincerely
Asshole
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Things I Can't Say Out Loud
RandomI'm doing this because I've realized I'm stuck. I've realized that the thoughts are real and I need to except it. I'm doing this to help myself get to point A to point B with out anyone's help
