Things I Can't Say Out Loud

Nov 6, 2019 8:13 am

Well. Let's say fuck life.

I've had a hell of a few months...broke up with my ex over summer, played girls emotions, caught feelings for a girl stupidity knowing better, I get over her...and am slowly falling back for the girl I fell for 7th grade year.

But hear me out😴 what if I tell you I never fully gotten over her.

I just ignored the feelings hoping for them to go away

But the didn't

I liked her 7th grade to the beginning of 8th grade then I got a girlfriend and ended up having to cut the girl off...because my girlfriend at the time was jealous

I always used to catch myself staring at her, then feel weird when she'd look back.

Then to the end of my relationship, after finding out I was being cheated on I started being friends with the girl again secretly.

Part of the reason was because Shes an amazing person and another part was something I continued to ignore was my feelings for her...

It's bad, I was in a relationship. I know...

So I broke up with my ex and messed with a girl that liked me to get over those feelings

But I couldn't and I still can't...

And now me and this girl are close asf, but the new girl I gotten over wants me now and I don't know what to do

I always say, listen to your gut not your heart.

But my gut is telling me to throw up

I'm just tired of feelings, and it's draining me completely

Kill Me In My Sleep.

Sincerely
             Asshole