Emotions
A thing I'm horrible with
To many at once is like I'm suffocating
Sometimes I don't even know what I feel or why I feel it I just know I'm not happy or somethings wrong
I panic or turn the lost feeling into angry
I feel empty at times
Sometimes it's like I'm a zombie, walking with no emotion on my face
I look to see what everyone else looks like and copy it so I don't get asked questions because being asked questions makes it worse because then you have to explain it and it applies so much more pressure
Its just built up confusion and anger and when I'm asked about it I'm afraid if I talk or tell you what's wrong I'd come off being rude or you'd leave
It's why I try to not get close to people anymore because they are bound to leave
They always do
So when something is wrong I keep it all inside, I don't tell anyone I don't even talk if I do end up talking don't expect a full sentence
It's hell
Emotions and feelings are hell
My heart beats heavily, my breathing starts breaking apart, my mind gets clouded and it turns into a anxiety attack
I can't be around people when this happens
Why?
Because I might just end up doing something stupid
But also I can't be around people because I can't have people see my vulnerable side
It sounds stupid but I don't let people see that part of me the only person that seen that was my friend, and she just first saw that Thursday in 3 years
Emotions
Emotions is something that fucks us all in the ass at the end
Sincerely
Asshole
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Things I Can't Say Out Loud
RandomI'm doing this because I've realized I'm stuck. I've realized that the thoughts are real and I need to except it. I'm doing this to help myself get to point A to point B with out anyone's help
