Things I Can't Say Out Loud

July 30, 2018 8:34pm

My dad called me

I mean he always calls me but we'd just gotten off the phone so I assumed he'd just forgotten to tell me something

When I answered I could hear the sadness in his voice.

"Your gonna find out sooner or later, I rather it be sooner then having it slip out. I told your sisters not to tell you because I know how you worry. But I'm leaving her"

By her he meant his wife who's tormented me for 4 years straight

I was happy but slowly it settled in

He loved her, despite her drinking problem and attitude. He chose to ignore it because he loved her

But he couldn't do it anymore, he could love her all he wanted.

But what was best? Loving a toxic women or finally being happy

Let's go back 4 years go to when a 10 year old girl trusted to much and believed to hard

She trusted people with people with her feelings and believed they trust her

But that stopped after a blonde women with 2 kids entered her and her sisters lives and fucked with her head so much she lost her self

She fell down a deep dark whole unable to climb back out

She said she loved them, she said she'd be there for them.

But those words only lasted so long. After they moved in with her. The women found out the girls older sister dated a ftm boy and everything changed

The women screaming at dad at night when she thought everyone was asleep, locking them out of the house until 8pm when their dad got home, calling them names, calling their mum fat discussing bitch with disrespectful children

That little girl was me and my life

When I tell someone they say "the past cannot be changed, the best you can do is move on"

But the past is all I got, and the only thing I've had

He's leaving her

For the best

Sincerely
              Asshole