Happiness
Something that never really last for me
Normal people when their happy enjoy the moment, enjoy smiling, laughing, having a good time
But with me it's the opposite—when I'm happy all I think is
Don't get used to it
Then suddenly my mood changes
I go from laughing to quite
Smiling to emotionless
Sometimes it's just like a switch when off and the room got dark with a hint of light seeping in though the window but not enough to want to make you get up
It's something I'm used and also not used to because who wants to be depressed all damn day everyday
Not I
And I never really know what's it about all I know is—it's dark and for some reason I want to be upset
Then when I say "I'm fine" or "I don't know" and I look fucking retared
Happiness isn't something that ever sticks around for me
It visits and rents out my mind then leaves when he's able to get on its feet
Then when I'm tired of answering questions I just smile
Smile to shut everyone up
Smile to keep everyone pleased
But other times it's the opposite where I look like i want to kill someone with my hands clutched, jaw tightened, eyebrows furrowed, eyes darker, like pursed...
I'm used to not being happpy
Sincerely
Asshole
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