It Won't Stop

Chapter Nine

nine kai’lani

 I’ve been sad ever since I got that phone call. Today was her funeral. I was dressed in a black Herve Leger bandage sarai dress with black Christian Louboutin 160mm daffodile red bottom pumps. Black Gucci rectangular sunglasses covered my puffy eyes.  

 ‘’Come on, baby. The children are ready.’’ Chris said, softly. I got up, grabbing onto his hand. We walked out of the bedroom, down the stairs. The kids were taking this hard. They loved my mother. Christian and Leilani were hiding it for their younger brother and sister.

 ‘’Let’s go.’’ I said, picking up a crying Caleb. We walked out of the house, to the Tahoe. We all got in. I was silently crying. Chris pulled off. Chris placed his hands on my thigh. I looked out of the window, thinking. My mom did everything for me. ‘’Kalia and Caleb when we get in here and don’t act up or I’mma spank you when we get home.’’ I said, sternly as Chris pulled into the parking lot of the church. We got out, walking inside. A lot of people were here. I sat in the front row beside Crystal. She was crying.

 ‘’Hey baby sister. How you feeling?’’ She asked in a raspy tone.

 ‘’I wanna say I’m good but I’m not. I’mma miss her.’’ I said, starting to cry. I took off my shade, to let Crystal my puffy eyes. ‘’I’ve been getting my regular hours of sleep. I just stay up, thinking.’’ I said. She hugged me, letting me hug onto her. I cried onto her shoulder. Chris rubbed onto my back. I shifted over to Chris. He held me in his arms, pecking my cheek.

 ‘’Baby, come on. Stop crying, I know it hurts.’’ He said, rocking us back and forth. The pastor walked up to his podium.

 ‘’We are here to put Mrs. Chaslyn Evalina Perez. She lived a wonderful life. Here today is her daughter, Kai’lani to give a eulogy.’’ The pastor said. I got up, walking up to the podium.

 ‘’Well, I knew this day would come but I didn’t think it would come this fast. My mother was a good woman. She made sure that all of her daughter had a good life. I lived with my mother, and I got abused by father even raped but I have forgiven him for all the sins he has done to my mother and I. When I look at my mother I see a thoughtful and considerate person. She never took things for granted. She always helped people, even when she couldn’t help herself. I’m going to miss her so much.’’ I said, crying. Chris and Crystal came up the podium, hugging me. I cried into Chris’s chest.

 ‘’Come on, baby.’’ Chris said. He guided me back to the seat. He rubbed my back, as he kissed my cheek. The pastor started to say his words. I wasn’t focus on him, I was focused on how it would be with neither one of my parents in my life. Chris kept his arm around me. The doors opened and I seen my dad. Crystal, Bree, and I looked at each other. Chris looked down at me. I just continued to look at him.

 ‘’We will be heading to the Rockland gravesite.’’ The pastor said. We all got up, walking out of church. We got into the Tahoe. I wiped my tears, looking back at the kids. Caleb and Kalia were asleep. I sat there, thinking. Chris pulled off, following behind them. I’m glad he’s here supporting me.

 ‘’When we home, you can lay down. I got the kids.’’ He said. I nodded, looking away. I can’t believe she’s gone. We pulled up to the funeral site. We got out, walking over to the burial spot. They lowered her casket into the ground. I cried into Chris’s chest. It hurts so much. ‘’Princess, you need to be strong.’’ Chris said. He rubbed his hand up and down my back.

 ‘’I’ll try.’’ I said, turning around. As I looked at her gravestone, I realized that she was in a better place. Chris pecked my cheek, wrapping his arms around my waist. My dad came up to us.

 ‘’Your mother was a wonderful woman. I never thought she would be taken away.’’ My dad said, crying. I hugged him tightly. I have forgiven him, since he’s taking classes from his anger problems.

 ‘’I miss her so much.’’ I said, crying into his chest. This is what I need, my dad. He gave me back to Chris. Chris held me in his arms. I put my head into his chest. He shhed me, caressing my back.

 ‘’Baby girl, I need you to stop crying for me please.’’ He pleaded. I nodded, hugging onto him. Everytime I look at the casket or gravestone I start to cry. Chris walked to the car, as his jacket draped over my shoulders. I got into the Tahoe, sitting there. I was numb. I just wanna go home and drink. Chris pulled off, all of the kids were asleep. ‘’Baby, go to sleep.’’ Chris said, rubbing up and down my thigh. I laid back, closing my eyes. I was thinking about all of this. If Chris does one more thing, I’m done.

 I’m a great woman, but Chris isn’t a faithful man. I deserve a faithful man, and one that doesn’t slam me again walls.

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