Lucid || pjm ✔️

n i n e t e e n

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⤠ denιal only delayed тнe paιn, delayed тнe accepтance, delayed тнe тrυтн ⤟

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Haeun's POV

It's been a week since I last saw Jimin. Ever since that night, I haven't spoken to him at all. I haven't gone to see you either. Because yes, I don't believe any of those things Jimin told me, but I can't help but be scared to try and go see you.

I haven't had proper sleep for days, only taking very short naps. Jimin's talk of you only being in my dreams just makes me terrified of falling asleep.

I don't believe him. No...but...I'm scared that if I fall asleep, everything that Jimin told me will become a reality. No...no it's not true though...

I haven't been going to my classes either, not that anyone would notice that I am gone. No one except Jimin. And the most he's done these past few days is trying to call me. Not once did he come over to my place again. I'm glad that he's at least respecting my need to be alone right now.

I've been walking around my apartment, not doing anything, for the last couple minutes trying to make sure I don't fall asleep. But I feel the drowsiness from days of unrest beginning to kick in. I feel my eyelids droop down, only catching myself every few seconds and forcing myself back to consciousness.

But...I'm just so tired... My body feels heavier and heavier with each step I take around the room. Until it becomes almost impossible for me to take another step.

If I lie down for just one second...it wouldn't hurt, right? Yeah...I'll just rest for a few minutes. I lie down onto the sofa, making myself comfortable on the cushions. I finally give in and let my eyes shut fully.

Just for a few minutes...

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"Haeun-ah, what did you want to eat?" I looked around at my surroundings, confused. We were in a car. You were sitting in the driver's seat, eyes ahead on the road. I looked outside the window to the see the sun bright out in the sky.

But...when did I go see you? Why didn't I remember leaving the house and going to meet you-

"Hey Haeun? Are you okay? You've been zoned out for like the last minute." You looked over at me for a second and let out a laugh before looking back to the road.

"Hmm what? Oh, I'm sorry Taehyung-ah. Uhh what did you say?"

"I asked what you wanted to eat." You were still smiling.

"Oh uhhhh, sushi is good."

"Great! I could go for some sushi too." I just hummed in response before staring out the front window. Jimin came to mind again. A car crash...

I felt paranoid just being in a car. My eyes darted in all directions, looking every which way at the streets in front of us. But there weren't any other cars in sight. But I continued to keep a lookout.

"You okay Haeun?"

"Hmm?"

"Well...you're squirming a lot in your seat something wrong?" I turned to see that you were again looking in my direction. The fact that you weren't keeping your eyes on the road made me nervous. Jimin had really gotten in my head.