His Trouble Maker {P.J.M} ✅

CHAPTER 15

JIMIN

My heart never belonged to anyone and I never bothered to give it away. But once I saw you, once your beautiful chocolate brown round eyes met mine it wasn't helping me with anything. I craved for you every night, for your touch. Your small hands all over my body, I wanted you as soon as I saw those eyes.

Seulgi turned into something I never thought she would and that's why I never liked her. I always had a bad feeling about her because she didn't want me to be with any other girl than her.

I never wanted to marry her but it was for my future and my parents safety. I was too afraid to stand up for myself because I didn't want to lose everything I worked for.

I always thought that I would never find love but then you came along. My feelings for you were too strong for me to control, the lust I felt for you never left. I couldn't look at you without wanting to kiss you until our lips bleed, it was hard but I was able to control it. People didn't want me to see me happy, seulgi didn't want to see me happy.

Everything I did to her or towards her was fake it was all because I had to. If I didn't have to do anything then I would've left her the first year of our marriage. I knew that if I told you I was married to such a monster you would leave me because I wasn't fully honest with you.

Age didn't matter to me only the lust and the love and the passion I felt for you and the love you gave to me. Seulgi didn't love me the way you did all she wanted was the sex I could offer. I never wanted to put my lips against hers but I had to, I never wanted to have sex with her but I had to, I never wanted to say that I loved her but I had to.

Everything with seulgi was because I had to, you hated me once you for telling you the truth but I understood I didn't tell you the full truth. We separated and I wanted to wait until I can fully be yours again. No one, no other woman could make me feel the way you did when I was deep inside you, when you moaned out my name to go faster and deeper. I felt so happy that I gave you pleasure that was asked for and you wanted more which I didn't mind at all. I was satisfied with the look on your flawless beautiful face when I make deep love to you, it was like I was looking at an angle.

My heart would beat faster every second when your eyes stayed glued to mine, it sure was new. When I looked into them all I saw was the love and lust you wanted but when I looked into seulgis eyes all I saw was sex and money. I felt disgusted because I ended up giving it to her but it didn't last for long. Years and years she tried to do everything and anything for me to insert her again but it never happened.

I never became hard for her only you, you affected me so much that I was tired of being with someone else. It was sick to me that I had to call her my wife, I wanted you to be my wife.

Seulgi loved someone but thought of me as a plan B. She was cruel and cold hearted but once she found out she loved me she wanted me all to herself. Once she realized that I never ever had feelings for her she didn't want me to be with you or with anyone for that matter.

The best part about you was that even though it would be tough you still fought for me and fought against seulgi. You could've won but seulgi was way too powerful.

It hurts to know that you still waited for me but I will always have you in my heart no matter what. Only you no one else just like I promised.

Seeing you all alone makes my heart shatter into millions of pieces. Sadly some part of me knew that something like this would happen but I wanted to see you safe and alive. You didn't live as the happiest that's why I wanted for you to stay alive and happy. Now that I see you, you look beautiful but still broken.

Broken that you don't have me by your side to kiss you and remind you every second that you are beautiful. You were always beautiful and still are I just wish I was there with you to repat it and see you smile.

Your smile was the best thing about you, every time you did I saw that you barely smiled. That's one of the many reasons why I wanted to stay with you. To show you that no one else can love you the way I did and still do.

Your laugh was like music to my ears along with your soft agelic voice. Every time I heard you voice I smiled like an idiot. When you talked to me I couldn't pay attention because of your amazing beauty. Every thing about you amazed me. Each day I learned something new about you that's why I never got bored of you.

I would lie to mysel if I didn't say that you are an actual angle from the heavens, I was lucky enough to catch you.

Every time I felt happy seulgi would barge in and ruin everything for me. She made you hate me with only words but I knew that you never hated me. You wanted to but you never did, the love you had for me was way too strong that even if I cheated on you, you would still love me. But that never came in my mind i didn't want to touch any other girl but you. I'd didn't want any other girl to touch me it wouldn't please me only your touch. An angles touch you were that angle and always will be.

Im scared, just as much as my heart flutters

Because destiny keeps getting jealous of us

Im just as scared as you

When you see me

When you touch me

The universe has moved for us

Without missing a single thing

Because our happiness has been planned

Cause you love me

And I love you