His Trouble Maker {P.J.M} ✅

SPECIAL CHAPTER #4

The truth

Today I have to clean seulgi and jimins old house. Their things were left in there so I had to decide what to throw away or keep. With all due respect I won't be keeping any of seulgi's belongings. All that I will return to her father or any family member of hers. I don't want to keep her stuff because I never had a tight or strong friendship with her.

We did get along after jimins death but I didn't fully trust her. She had no one so I wanted to make sure she felt like she wasn't alone.

Her father didn't want to be seen with her any more. Her siblings became scared of her, and her mother went to visit once to tell her the truth. Her mother didn't want seulgi to be known as part of the family any longer. She threatened seulgi only giving her two options. To either kill herself or disappear from the world, which was no difference.

I guess that is why seulgi decided to end her life in prison. No one was paying attention so she took the chance to do it. Everything was caught on camera.

Looking at everything Jimin owned or once wore didn't help me at all. He had a lot of pictures he took when he traveled before. One thing I remember him telling me was that he would love to take me somewhere far away from here. That has a beautiful view and is peaceful with no disturbance.

"I will take you one day... somewhere far away from korea and it's horrible things... somewhere so beautiful that matches your beauty... a place where I can show you that no one will ever hurt you... I will protect you my love... I promise"

He couldn't keep that promise but I knew he was planning on it. Jimin was very sincere with his words. He never failed to impress me.

"I see my future with you little girl... I know right now we won't be able to be 100% happy but the future is near.. our future is near"

He left a lot more things than just me and his family, he left everything he owned. Everything he wore, his accessories, his hair brush, tooth brush, etc.

I kept all that, I wasn't going to return to any family member, to any friend of his. The things are all mine no matter what, jungkook doesn't know but he doesn't have to know.

Jimin is and always will be my everything, I will keep his stuff because it helps me feel like he is still with me. It helps me know that I once had an amazing person who loved me more than himself. He sacrificed his own life to save me and his family. No one will be able to top his effort to show that he loves me.

I found a small box under his bed. It had my name on it in his beautiful hand writing. It also had a picture of us when we went on our first date. It was the one of when we went on the roller coaster. He wasn't even paying attention to the scary drop. Jimin was looking at me with love filled eyes. While I, on the other hand, looked terrified. At the end I ended up liking it.

On the back it read

"The best moment of my life is when I realized that I fell in love, in love with someone who was seeking for it. You were someone who wasn't treated fairly or with love, you had a lot of people who did though. You didn't see it, because you were stuck with so much negativity in your life that it blinded you.

A lot of people didn't treat me fairly either, but it was my fault. I involved myself with bad people that at the moment I thought I wasn't. I thought that marrying seulgi was a good choice because they had a lot of money. I was wrong but getting to spend my time with you was the best moments of my life. I would thank you for it but I can't put it in words, that is why I will be proposing to you."

The letter read, it seemed to be incomplete but there was another one with a different date. The date of my birthday.

"My beautiful wife (soon to be wife), after I read this to you, you might hate me but I did it for you. I wanted you to know that I didn't like my decision either but it was the only way to make us happen. It was the opportunity to marry you just like I wanted.

Seulgi wasn't going to sign the divorce papers, it wasn't going to be as easy if I just asked her too. I had to do it my love, I know you will hate me but I had to tell you some how or at least soon.

I had sex with her in order to get her to sign the papers. This isn't the best way to show you but I have a video that I recorded. She didn't even look at the papers when I told her to sign them, but she signed them. That day in your birthday, it was the day that I was able to ask you to marry me. I understand if you hate me but I just wanted you to know that it was all for us... for our happiness

I love you"

There was a c.d that read "미안해(I'm sorry)" it was what I expected. Jimin and seulgi having sex, but what I noticed was that he kept on looking at the camera. His facial expression showed that he wasn't enjoying it at all.

I couldn't do anything but burst into tears but not fact that seulgi and Jimin did things, the video after.

He was sitting on his bed staring into the camera. It was like if he was right in front of me, staring deeply at me.

"I know after this-things won't turn out great. I know seulgi will figure out my trick and do something about it... I will not let her touch you I promise... I will protect you with all my might and no one will do anything about it, I know you are pregnant and I know you don't want to tell me but take care of our family.. please find someone who will support you and help you and my beautiful kids... I'm making this video because I will sacrifice myself for you.. to save you... you won't see this until you find it under my bed...this will be years old I hope...

You changed a lot of things in my life... mainly my stress and somewhat depression, you fixed a lot of things for me when I tried to fix them myself... I hope that I did the same for you...

Please live for me... I want you to continue your life and grow old.... I love you ok?"

At the end he smiled and turned off the camera. That wasn't the end of it though. Another video came on which was him in his kitchen, later I appeared in the video.

I remembered that day, it was the day I realized I was pregnant. That day we decided to cook together and have a nice dinner. Seulgi wasn't in town so he planned that. We had a short amount of time with each other but made a lot of memories.

While living our lives together I remembered Jimin taking pictures and photos of every moment we spent with each other. They were all in the next video, it was a montage of every photo he took of us together. There were even small videos that he secretly took of me or when I wasn't paying attention.

Looking at them felt like I was reliving those moments once again. My tears couldn't stop because I was realizing how much I missed him. Everything about him even the smallest thing about him. But mainly I was missing him, I felt empty looking at the memories we made together.

What happened, happened. I can't change the fact that he is no longer here, that he is no longer by my side.

But I am still living because that is the promise I made to him. I will keep it, grow old and take good care of my family, our family.