She has battle scars.
They're marks on her skin that proves the battles she has won, and the ones she has lost.
No, these battle scars weren't created by a whom, they were created by a disease.
Kelly Smith fortunately and unfortunately, has battle...
no one will ever know what death feels like, until they experience it. No one has been alive or remember it to tell what it feels like. today, is the day I feel weird but also relieved.
that weight that has been on my shoulders for years, is slowly peeling off and I feel better. I have another weird feeling that I've never felt before, but it's nothing to stress about.
It was hard to get up out of bed this morning and to add to all that. I started throwing up this morning, which was nice. obviously it sucks, but I can't control it besides letting nature take its course.
I said all my goodbyes yesterday because I knew, I wasn't going to be here much longer and i'm glad I did that because everyone can have closure. I feel guilty for going off chemotherapy because i'll be leaving my dad, I was the last thing he had of my mom and he always was so protective of me.
"hey munchkin" my dad says walking over to the couch and plopping down next to me.
"hi dad" I say laying on his shoulder.
"everyone went to the pool, wanna go down there?" he asks grabbing my hand.
"yeah"
one last time.
I throw on my bathing suit
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I walk down to the pool and I see all the guys and the girls playing in the pool.
"y'all wanna play chicken fight?" I yell and they all whip their heads towards me.
"kelly!" ava yells and hugs me.
they all nod and I jump in, in the process I splash jack.
"rude" I stick my tongue out at him and I see Zach is on Jacks shoulder.
"Corbyn!" I yell and he swims over and immediately bends down. I climb onto his shoulders and he walks towards jack and zach.
"ready to lose" I say looking into Zach's eyes. he shakes his head and laughs. "nope"
"GO!" Sydnie yells and immediately zach and I attack each other's shoulders. I am obviously weaker because of my cancer, but zach is weak. I push once more and zach falls into the water.
"yay!" I yell and corbyn lets me down. I high five him and jump around bragging.
"I beat zach" I taunt and I feel zach tackle me under the water.
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it's been a couple hours and we are all in ours relaxing and getting ready to go to sleep. Tyrone insisted he sleeps in my room with me, and I really couldn't argue with him.
"bubby" he mumbles and I look to my side and I see him already looking at me
"yeah?" I say
"I love you" he smiles.
I laugh lightly and blush
"I love you too" he wraps his arms around, so i'm on his chest.
"when I die, anytime you see a blue butterfly; it's me." I whisper to him and he stiffens.
"okay" I smile lightly and in minutes he's asleep.
I sigh, and look at him. he looks so peaceful and innocent. he has been there for me through everything, no matter what; even though I was sometimes a bitch.
I close my eyes and wrap my hand in tyrone's.
"never forget me" I whisper and I let darkness finally take over.
