Hey guys. So I just want to apologise for updates being so spread out recently but I've just had trouble finding motivation to update as frequently as I used to. So what I've decided to do is aim to update every Friday or Saturday so that updates are more consistent. There may be occasional bonus updates during the week but I will definitely updating those one of those two days. So yeah. Enjoy. Warning: This may get sad.
TW: Depressing thoughts
Patton's POV
I couldn't believe it. The love of my life just left me. I knew that I should have run after her but I just couldn't bare to look at her, at least not after what just happened. My heart was way too fragile and was already cracked. Seeing her again would only rip it into two pieces. My hand shaking involuntarily, I decided to ask one of her friends to check on her and find her since I simply couldn't be there for her as it would hurt both of us too much. I took my phone out of my pocket and decided to text her best friend Vivian.
Patton: Hey Vivian
Vivian: Hey Pat. Is everything ok?
Patton: Not really?
Vivian: Has it got something to do with Y/N?
Patton: Yeah. How do you know?
Vivian: It doesn't matter. Is she okay?
Patton: She..she just broke up with me 😓
Vivian: WHAT?!?
Patton: I know 😓 I was wondering if you could maybe check on her for me.
Vivian: I'm not sure if she'll want to see me at the moment
Patton: Please Vivian. She ran off somewhere and I don't know where. Besides, I'm too fragile at the moment. You're her best friend. Please. She needs her best friend there for her
Vivian: I'm sorry Patton but I think she just needs to be alone
Patton: Vivian, please help me!
But after that, she didn't reply. She had read the message but failed to respond. Sighing and a few tears beginning to trickle down my face, I decided to try her other good friend Ivy. I wasn't entirely sure about this Ivy character but if Y/N trusted her then she must be ok. Besides, what other choice did I have?
Patton: Hey Ivy
Ivy: Oh hey Pat!
Patton: I was wondering if you could help me
Ivy: Maybe I could, but maybe I don't want to help you
Patton: Please Ivy. It's not me anyway, it's Y/N
Ivy: What about her?
Patton: She... broke up with me and then ran off. I was wondering if you could maybe look for her and comfort her for me...please
Ivy: Sure!
A small sigh of relief escaping my mouth, I shoved my phone back into my pocket and head next door to my room, my head hung low and tears escaping my eyes and falling down my cheeks and onto the floor.
Meanwhile
Y/N's POV
I ran as far into the forest as I could, my breath speeding up as I ran and my head crowded with thoughts. I tried to push these thoughts out of my mind as I ran but they just bounced back and pierced my mind even deeper.
You're worthless!
Why did you ever think that he could love someone like you?
You're such an idiot!
No one could love you!
You just stand there crying all the time!
He's probably glad that he doesn't have to put up with you anymore!
You screw everything up!
You couldn't even stay with him for more than a month!
Every one hates you!
They probably wish you'd leave forever!
"Enough!" I yelled, slumping against a tree and sliding down, pulling my knees to my chest and burrying my head in my hands. "I already know that. I've known that my whole life. I'm just a worthless piece of trash that everyone would be better off without. And when something good finally happens in my life, I just have to ruin it. I honestly wish I could run away for good and never return but I know that I can't otherwise Bella would have no morality and I can't do that to her. Otherwise, I would have left the mind scape ages ago. It would be a whole lot better for everyone if I did" I sobbed with each word.
These intoxicating thoughts had been gone for a while, ever since I met Patton. He brought pure joy and happiness into my life but now that I've pushed him away, all that has gone and the thoughts have returned. Everything single thought is true. Every single word. But I can usually hide my true emotions with a fake smile or a few silly puns but not now. Now all of my feeling have been released and there was no pushing them back into the bottle they were stuck in.
Suddenly, I heard footsteps running towards me, followed by panting. I immediately recognised the person as being Ivy and, not wanting anyone to see me like this or wanting any human interaction at all, I turned away from her.
"Please leave me alone Ivy" I whispered softly, unable to speak properly due to the tears.
"Look I just came to tell you something okay? I'll be gone in a minute"
"What is it?" I asked curiously.
"It's about Patton. After you broke up with him, he kinda left Thomas's mind scape and ran away. Just thought you might like to know. Bye!" And with that, she ran off.
I could barely believe what I was hearing. Patton left the mind scape? Oh this was all my fault. Thomas now had no morality and it was all my fault. I had to go after him. It may hurt to see him but I had to fix what I had broken.
I guess I was finally going to leave the mind scape after all.
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