she loves me, she loves me not

Chapter 32: You fucking knew

"Mari the bathroom is on the other side"

The blonde guard says to Maritza as she was being dragged in C-block, but Maritza didn't even try to listen.

She made her way to Gloria's cube hoping that the older Latina was still awake, and she was. Gloria was sitting on the edge of her bunk just in case something would go wrong. When she saw the shadow of the smaller Latina at the entrance of her cube she quickly got up knowing that something happened for sure.

"what happen-"

Gloria was about to ask, but Maritza crashed herself into the older woman, burying her heartbreaking sobs into her chest.

"hey, mami"

Gloria asks her eyes starting to well up as she had an idea of what might have happened.

"you promised she'd understand"

Maritza says between loud sobs.

"hey, hey calm down, c'mere. sit"

Gloria says as she guides the small Latina to her bunk. She holds the girl in a tight embrace, stroking her hair to calm her down.

"what happened. She didn't accept you?"

Gloria asks confused, that wasn't something Flaca would do especially to Maritza.

"No, she did. But she thought I was talking about someone else"

Maritza says grabbing onto the older Latina's shirt and holding tightly to it.

"what did you say mami?"

Gloria asks in a soft voice.

"I told her that I was gay, and that I'm falling for someone and that she makes me happy and she treats me like a queen and that she's perfect and that her name starts with an 'M'"

Maritza says in a few seconds, between sharp breaths it was hard to breath or to do anything at all.

"she didn't understand and now she shut down on me"

Maritza cries out.

"oh my god that stupid fucking bitch"

Gloria says as she holds Maritza closer to her

"hey, take it easy on her ok? She's hurt and scared, she thinks Maritza is gonna replace her by this bitch whoever she is"

Mac says looking sorry for Maritza but a little mad, how could she want anyone else when she has someone that loves her like Flaca does?

"Flaca is the bitch"

Gloria says looking at Mac shooting daggers from her eyes

"what do you mean?"

Mac asks confused.

Gloria opens her mouth to explain to Mac how Flaca is the girl Mari was falling for, but she feels the small girl breathing heavily from her mouth and gripping firmly onto her. She was having a panic attack.

"hey, hey mija you having a panic attack?"

Gloria asks pulling way from the Latina to face her, tears flooded her eyes, her cheeks were rosy her breathing was out of control.

"I- I can't"

Maritza tried but she couldn't,

"breath? you can't breath? you can't talk??"

Gloria asks now in panicking too, Maritza was in a really bad place

the panicked girl put 2 fingers out since it was hard to breath