Perhaps Love (Jinsoo ff)

(8) #UglyDuckling

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JISOO's POV

A week after, my mind was still occupied by that sudden big decision of my life.

"I'm marrying... I'm not..." I murmured while I was picking out each strands of these leaves.

To be honest, I wasn't really happy these past few days. If only I had a choice, I would totally back out from that marriage with no hesitation.

"I am. I'm not. I am. I'm not. I am. I'm not." Oh heaven, please give me a sign, I sighed.

"I am" I whispered as I pulled out the last leaf. So that's it? Is my fate really this ill and unlucky?

Still sitting here in our classroom, my focus shifted to my friends who were busy and happy chit chatting to each other. Perks of having this chill subject, we could talk for all we want with no disturbance from the professor.

"Girls, did you ever think about marriage?" I asked them which cause their attentions pinned on me. Just then, Lalice just laughed at my question.

"Ya, Jisoo. A student marrying?" she said with a playful smile.

"I know, you crazy girl" Chaeyoung added before she pinched my cheek.

"Ya pabo, marriage? Yeah right. In Korea, a regular person's lifespan is 80 years. Let's us say we married at our age, then how long are you living with one person? That's like, 80 minus 18 equals 62 years. Don't you think, that's too tiring?" Jen chimed in as she explained her thoughts about marriage.

"Right! And if you married and someone you love appears. What are you going to do?" Lalice added.

"Bottomline is, you shouldn't get married until you find someone you love" Chaeyoung delivered her opinion.

All of their advices to me were echoing in my mind. I shouldn't agree on that marriage at the first place. I will be unhappy and miserable for the rest of my life once I tied the knot with that person who I don't even know personally. To make things worse, he is cold hearted and loves someone already. Just what will be my life in the future if I continue to get married with him?

"THAT'S RIGHT! I didn't even think of that" I said in a very loud tone voice. I stood up firmly from my seat then walked out, leaving them confused with my sudden attitude. I need to talk again with my parents.

I went straightly  home for my parents and I had to discuss this matter once again. Before it got too,late, I need to take back my decision. I have to cause I want to.

"Mom! Dad!" I called them once I arrived at my house. Then, there they were at the living room, arranging all the important papers for the upcoming wedding.

"Yes? Jisoo? What do you need?" my mom countered back, still filling the papers.

"This marriage is invalid! Give me those papers. I need to return it to them right now" I opened up, catching my breath because of a long run I did all the way here.

"What are you saying? I thought you already agreed Jisoo?" my mom didn't expect my sudden changed of decision. She immediately hid the papers but lucky me, the fan which was behind her blew the papers into my direction.

"Mianhe eomma, appa" I apologized as I instantly took the forms and ran as fast as I can to leave the house.

"Ya Jisoo! Where are you going?" the last question I heard from them before I completely left.