I watched as Aang's expression changed from joy to shock and sadness at once. He dropped down to his knees and screamed at the top of his lungs. Katara tried going to him but I stopped her. She had tears in her eyes.
"Let him grieve in peace." I told her. She nodded sadly and disappeared from my sight. My heart felt like it was being crushed. Not only seeing Aang like this, but also witnessing the scene all over again.
All the memories came flooding back. Monk Iyatso's bones lay exactly as I left them. I've come here countless times, to apologize, to cry and just lay there, wishing I was dead. Monk Iyatso died and it's all my fault. I slipped on something and landed with a loud thud on the ground. Sokka looked at me like he wanted to rush to my aid but then his face hardened once more. I sighed loudly as I stood up. Aang had calmed down a little and Katara was by his side, helping him to calm down. I wish someone cared for me the way she does for Aang. I walked over to the meditating room but turned around with my heart racing. Aang must not enter this room, he already had cried his lungs out when he saw Monk Iyatso's bones, what will he do if he sees our parents' bones?
"You okay?" I stiffened at the sound of another voice. I didn't hear any footsteps following me. I turned around only to be face to face with none other than Sokka. I was shocked, so shocked my brain couldn't function. My voice got caught in my throat and all I could do was stare at this boy. Isn't he the boy who didn't want anything with me for the past four days?
"Y-y-yeah." Stupid voice! Sokka stared at me for awhile before sighing and turning around to leave. Do something! My inner Yana yelled. She never spoke to me, but whenever she told me to do something, I always listened because she was correct, most of the time. "Wait!"
Sokka glanced behind him before just standing there, debating whether to stay or go. I could hear him whispering to himself, I guessed he was arguing with his inner self. "Sure. It's not like there's something exciting to do here."
I nodded while biting my bottom lip. Well, ain't this weird? I beckoned Sokka to follow me to my favorite place in this whole temple. The bison stables. My bison, Shugi, and I would always just sit here and relax but I sadly lost her during the raid. Sokka sat down in front of the fountain and I sat across from him, but still far away as possible. Don't want to make things awkward.
"Why do you hate me?" The question came out so fast I couldn't stop it. Sokka looked at me real funny before his features softened and he sighed. How many times can this boy sigh? And what is the use for it?
"I don't hate you Yana." Just like Aang said. I noticed only now that this was the first time Sokka actually said my name out loud and it sounded so right on his tounge. He doesn't hate you Yana, my inner self repeated, he might also like you.
"Then why every time you looked at me, the look in your eyes screamed death?" I asked as I scooted a little closer, even though we were still a good distance apart.
"Honestly, I'm afraid of you. Ever since that North Pole incident, I've been having nightmares of what you did to Yue, fearing that you would do the same to me." Sokka said with his head down. I finally understood what Lee meant when he said I should apologize to the boy. He meant Sokka and the incident of the North.
I mustered up all my courage and took a deep breath in before facing Sokka. "I'm sorry about what happened at the North Sokka. I'm sorry that I did that to Yue and I'm sorry I gave you nightmares, I wasn't myself at that time. I wish I can say it will all be alright but I know it won't. Not with me here anyway." I wiped the tear away that managed to fall. "That's why I plan on going to Ba Sing Se."
×××××
Hope you liked it!
Questions:
💧Do you think Aang will be okay?
💧Why is Sokka so nice all of sudden?
💧And lastly, do you think Yana did the right thing by asking for an apology?
STAY TUNED FOR MORE ON YANA. ✨
