The Entanglement {Book 1}

Chapter 29: A Decision

I sat in our bedroom angrily. What kind of choice is that? Either chose me and forget your family or pick your family and lose me. If he genuinely cared about me, then he would not even think about asking me such a request. This is not something as simple as pick which cake you want or which gown to wear.

It was life or death. Who knows what could happen to Oliver the moment I send him off. Someone could stab, kill, or even rape him and just the sheer thought of letting him fend for himself at such a young age would only make hate and resentment grow in his heart.

If I go off with my brother, then I would lose him. Would he dismiss me like he dismissed Rose all those years ago? Would he seek comfort with another woman? How would he let me go? Would he emotionally detach himself from me?

And what of this child? I'm sure that once I start showing more, it will be difficult for him to even think of letting me go. If I was with child, then I'm sure he would lock me away in a tower just to keep me here. As much as he speaks so proudly about being a father, I know that once it comes out that I'm pregnant, he would do anything to keep the two of us here.

Usually, that is a trait that any women would want in a man but I know with protectiveness comes overbearingness. He wouldn't let me out his sight and he damn sure would not let me get aboard a ship and go off to wherever with his royal heir in my belly. If I do leave, then I have to move soon...before this belly shares my secret before my lips could.

I got up from our bedroom and walked to where I knew he would be. There is only place this man would sulk, and that's his office. I turned down the hallway and saw his office door ajar. Sure enough, he behind his desk trying to bury himself in paperwork once more. I stood in front of his desk with my arms folded.

I wanted to lash out at him, to scream at him for making me choose and hit him with all my might. But the only thing that forced its way into my mind was the sheer idea of losing him. The thought of not having his support and guidance in my life any longer. How much my heart would blacken from missing such a large piece of me.

"Say it's not true. Say that you love me and will always love me." I command in a shaky voice. Tears had already gathered in my eyes, and before I could stop them from falling, they fell on their own free will. He lowered the papers in his hands and looked at me. He didn't answer me.

"Say it! Because we have been through too much and I've already lost too much. I can't...just tell me that you love me, Damien." I reply, but still, he continues to just stare at me. Finally, he answers,

"I see you've made your choice."

"If it were Theodore or Jace or anyone else I would never ask this of you! You know I have to do this, I wouldn't be the woman I am if I didn't. Damien, you can't just walk away from this...from us." He stood to his feet and walked over to me. He stopped when he was directly in front of me and stroked my tear stricken face. He wiped the tear away with his thumb and kissed me tenderly. He rested his head against mine,

"There's a chance I will never see you again. So for this to work for the two of us, I want you to let me go."

"What?" I reply as I back away from his loving touch

"That way it won't be so hard for the two of us. Forget about me and everything that has brought us closer with one another. I will do the same." he continued as he reached around my neck and unclasps the medallion from around my neck.

I felt naked without it. I looked down at my now bare neck and back up at my soulmate. Damien's eyes remained empty, and I knew he was doing his best to front like nothing was hurting him. I, on the other hand, was not that good of an actress. I backed away a few more feet before retreating out the room.