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The boys just ended the show and everyone was backstage, laughing and drinking some shots. Calum and Michael were playing guitar and Luke was singing along, harmonizing San Francisco in an acoustic way.

Ashton was silent, deep in thoughts his mind was fuming and heart bouncing faster than usual. Ashton was afraid. Afraid of how he was feeling.

From months now Ashton was different, he felt different and he knew something was wrong with him.

He was weird when Luke was around and he didn't understand why.

« You okay? » Michael tapped his shoulder softly.

« Yeah, yeah. » He cleared his throat. « Just... you know thinking. » He smirked shyly, handing his drink to his lips.

« Stop overthinking Ash. » Mike said.

« Easier said than done. »

« Wanna talk to me about it? » Michael asked scooting to Ashton.

« I-I don't know. » Ashton felt his cheeks getting darker. « I'm not sure. »

« Hey relax mate, have you kill someone or something? » The pink-ish colored man asked, giggling.

Ashton laughed with no enthusiasm, forcing himself to smirk. Ashton was totally afraid in the inside. His hands were moist and he felt like he could puke. Michael saw the boy getting all nervous and he nudged the curly-haired boy.

« Maybe we could go outside? Breathing some fresh air? »

« Y-yeah. »

The boys stood up and they quickly went outside. It was cold because they were in England and it was winter, but Ashton didn't care, all he cared now was how he was feeling inside. Michael sat down on a little bench near the door and Ashton did the same. He rubbed his hands on his knees and sighed.

He didn't know if he should tell Michael but he needed to tell someone before turning insane.

« You really look sad Ash tell me what's wrong. » Michael said with a concerned voice. « Did something happened? » He frowned. « Oh please don't tell me that you want to leave the band. »

« No, no I love our band so much I'll never do that. » He sighed.

« So what's on your mind? »

« I-I think... hmm... I'm in love with Luke. » He whispered and straight after he grabbed his bottom lip between his teeth.

Michael's eyes widened and he gaped for ten long seconds.

« You what? » He patted Ashton's knee. « Like you wanna beh is boyfriend? » He said with a knowing look, and Ashton nodded shyly.

« I'm so scared Mike, I don't know what to do. »

Michael looked at the curly boy with a reassuring smile. The guy was a bit lost, he didn't know Ashton was gay but maybe he wasn't, maybe it was just Luke but whatever that wasn't that important. Michael was searching for some kind words to say to his friend because he hated seeing Ashton as sad and scared.

« Look I don't care of who you love. » He smiled. « I love you no matter what, you're my bro. »

« Thank you. » Ashton smirked shyly. « I'm just so scared you know because he's dating that Nia girl. » Ashton sighed. « And I know he's not gay and I'm not either, I swear to you that I don't want to feel that way for him but I just... it's just stronger than myself Mike, I can't help but feeling all weird inside everytime he's near me. »

Ashton sighed in relief, he felt way better now because someone knew about his feelings, now Michael could maybe help him to understand what's going on with him and maybe they could find a solution or something.

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