B A N D M A T E

E I G H T

// THIS IS THE CHAPTER YOU GUYS ! //

Miami, the sun, the beach, the palm trees. The boys were here for two days now and it was amazing. They already had three shows, and they had another one tonight. Ashton was nervous, after a really long talk with Michael he decided that he had to tell him tonight, just after the show. Calum said that he and Mike wouldn't go clubbing afterwards to stay if anything goes wrong. Mike said that they will just wait in Calum's room.

Ashton wasn't confident at all.

The guys were playing Youngblood, also known as the last song of the set, which means that in less ten minutes, Ashton had to talk to Luke. The boy frowned when he banged the bad drum, it was so unusual, Ashton was never wrong at performing. Well, tonight was special and he had a lot in mind so maybe he had the right to make mistakes.

« Alright guys thank you for coming, we love you so much! » Calum said.

« Miami see you next time! » Luke waved at the crowd.

Ashton walked to the boys to do the bow and thirty seconds later he was running to the bathroom and he threw up all his dinner. He nearly cried because throwing up hurts, but he was also so fucking nervous and his nerves couldn't handle that much pressure.

He washed his mouth and face quickly and he joined the boy backstage.

« You okay? » Calum asked seeing that Ashton was as pale as death.

« No, Calum I'm not ready, I can't do this. » The small boy started to shake.

« Okay breathe, you can do it, Ashton. » He patted his shoulders. « You're freaking amazing and you can do that right? »

Ashton nodded but he wasn't really sure.

« So Mike and I are going to get back to the hotel now. » He sighed. « You got this right? »

Ashton bitted his bottom lip, holding his tears because it was too much, coming out at his best friend and telling him that he was in love with him. Fuck it was really too much.

« Cal... » Ashton grabbed Calum's arm before the kiwi could leave the room. « What if he rejects me? What if he's disgusted by me, by my feelings? » Ashton's eyes were a bit wet.

« He won't. » Calum assured. « C'mon you know him better than that Ash. »

Ashton nodded, maybe Calum was right, maybe it was going to be okay. Calum hugged him quickly and then he went outside joining Michael in the car. Two seconds later Ashton received a message from Michael, who said that Ashton got this with a thumbs up. It made Ashton laugh a little, but he was still sick inside.

Suddenly Luke came into the room, he had a towel around his shoulder and he was smiling like the goofy guy that he was.

« What a show huh? » Luke said and he sat down on the couch grabbing a drink of alcohol, eyes on his phone.

Ashton nodded, playing with the hem of his shirt. He took a deep breath and then he made a few steps, coming near the blonde boy. Ashton was swinging on his feet, he never felt that nervous of his entire life.

« Hey, can I talk to you? » He asked, wondering if he could just run away, but Luke smiled and now it was too late.

« Sure. » Luke layed his phone and his drink on the table, giving Ashton his entire attention. « Is everything okay? You look a bit... tense. »

« Y-Yeah. » Ashton mumbled. « Look, I've been holding this for months now and I just can't keep doing this. »

Luke furrowed his eyebrows, wondering what was this important.

« Luke I-I love you. » Ashton was almost whispering, his hands were shaking on the hem of his shirt and the boy was looking at the floor.

« Yeah, I love you too bro. » Luke smiled frankly.

Ashton's hands became wet, God he didn't think that would happen, but maybe it was that shocking that Luke couldn't even understand it.

« No, not like this. » Ashton scratched his neck while Luke was frowning. « I mean... » He breathed deeply. « I-I'm in love with you Luke. »

// What do you think Luke will say?//