B A N D M A T E

T E N

It was three am and Luke was pacing in his room, not knowing what he should do, he knew that he has been a jerk and he wanted to apologize to Ashton because the small boy didn't deserve this at all. No Ashton was such a sweetheart and he was always smiling, at least he used to be a ball of happiness, but he wasn't smiling anymore and maybe it was all because of Luke.

The blonde crossed the hallway and he made his way to Ashton's room. He unlocked it because the four boys had each other's keys and entered quietly. The tall boy leaned against the door and he huffed. It was very dark inside and Luke's heart started to beat faster.

« Somebody's here? » Ashton's little groggy voice asked.

« It's me. » Luke said.

Ashton's heart dropped when he realized that it was Luke's voice. What was he doing here? Ashton sat in his bed and he breathed quickly.

« W-what are you doing here? » Ashton asked.

« I needed to see you. » He huffed. « I needed to apologize, I-I was an asshole and I didn't mean to hurt you. »

« Thank you. » Ashton whispered while tiny tears made his way to his eyes, remembering what happened.

Then it was silent. Not that really comfortable silent but the uncomfortable one with deep breaths and fuming minds.

« Can I sit on your bed? » Luke asked.

« I guess. » Ashton said and he pressed his legs against his chest.

Luke sat in the bed, legs crossed and he breathed deeply.

« Why? » Luke said after two long minutes if silence.

« Why what? » Ashton asked, furrowing his eyebrows.

« Why are you in love with me? » Luke stuttered.

« I-I don't know... I just do. » The small boy sighed. « I'm sorry Luke... You know, I didn't choose to love you. » He sniffed. « I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. »

Luke sighed, he wasn't uncomfortable, he was just surprised.

Ashton lighted up the room by pressing his little light on the nightstand, it wasn't too bright, it was just soft and subdued light. Luke instantly looked at the boy, he had puffy eyes and he was really pale. The blonde winced because all of this was his fault.

« When did you start... I mean when did you understand that you had feelings for me? » Luke asked, trying to be as soft as he could.

« Six, maybe seven months. » The boy said looking everyhting but Luke.

« Wow... that's a really long time. » Luke frowned. « I'm really... fuck I'm so sorry Ashton. » Luke facepalmed and he sighed. « All this time I was with Nia a-and I didn't know... » Luke stood and he started pacing in Ashton's room. « Damn how many nights I came to you to talk about her? Fuck Ashton, why didn't you say anything? I was here, I was right here you could have told me!» Luke maybe screamed a little.

Ashton scowled and he wrapped his arms around his legs, setting his head on the top of his knees. He didn't like when Luke was screaming, and he hated it, even more, when he was screaming against him.

« I was... I was scared. » Ashton said without a look. « I didn't want to lose you. »

Luke sighed, rubbing his neck.

« I'm sorry I shouldn't have screamed at you, it's just this whole situation is really disrupting for me and I don't know what do to. »

« Look maybe we could just forget about this? » Ashton sniffed softly. « I know you don't feel the same and I really don't want things getting weird between us. »

Luke locked his gaze to Ashton's, he could see that the boy was heartbroken he seemed like a lost puppy and Luke wanted to hug him because he hated seeing him that sad.

But right now he couldn't do anything to help him.